today i realized something. i feel that i am just way to sensitive about things. this isnt meant to be a sad post by any means. i just realized, i feel towards negative things bc i feel like i attract them. but that cant be possible. no one can attract purely negative things, that is just one thing that i do that i need to get over. but i ( Read more... )

i can feel the blackness pressing on the back of my eyes. this is almost the exact state i was in two years ago. why cant i get over this thing, this big black fierce thing. failure is my worst fear. this is what failure brings.
fuck.

really, really, ok. today was freaking gorgeous. really beautiful. ummm i was enjoying the weather, driving home from work....... i was turning right and there was a car in the left turn lane where i had to pass to turn right....you know the one i am talking about? do ya do ya? well this guy freaking flicks me off like nothing i had ever seen ( Read more... )

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i will soon be making a trip...only an overnighter...but getting out of chicago for the first time in months...weird. going back makes me think of two people...one i know doesnt live there anymore and another who might............two people who i thought would be last on my mind become first...i wonder why......i think i am just going crazy.

so my mom got a hickey. my dad gave it to her yesterday at the dinner table. her hairstylist asked her if she burned herself, but then said, wait you dont use a curling iron. she had to admit it. how do i feel about that, i dunno kinda gross. but i guess you got to get yours. in addition i have been brushing my teeth with expired toothpaste. 7 ( Read more... )

tonight i heard a broken man speak.
he shook and moaned.
and spoke to my heart.

sometimes i feel like sleeping forever....
today is a day i miss my old friends, how it seemed everyone cared...where did you all go...i guess it doesnt matter...i have enough...but after a shit ass day i wonder where they have all gone.

Dear andrew ( Read more... )