Holy shit its been fucking forever since I updated this bitch. Everythings going good. I work at a Reptile store now and have a whole new band thingy goin on. Uhhh I gre some fucking hair which I never thought Id do. Me and Ness are going on 4 Months which is great and its still going good. Uhh sheesh that sums it all up with no details but I ( Read more... )

Lots of things just eat at me on a daily basis. Why am I constantly a burden to myself and my surroundings. I tend to think of all the problems that I have and wonder how I sit here 95% of the time with a smile on my face. It wouldnt be so hard to leave a home of love and a family if my own didnt flee. I love everypart of this household and in ( Read more... )

Well things have been going fairly well. As each day passes I find myself loving my girlfriend more and more as each moment progresses. My band is gonna start moving again so hopefully all that goes well. I think I am gonna start working for my brother so hopefully that goes well. I really could use the money. My new neice is beautiful and I saw my ( Read more... )

Well today is Nessa's 16th birthday. Im glad to be here spending the day with her. It feels good to love someone this much. Something that should have been done today on my part makes me feel like utter shit. But I try my best to keep a face of happiness so that I lead her not to worry. I want her to be totally happy today. Hopefully this day is ( Read more... )

I wish these waves of suffering would subside and cleanse my head from these nightmares I have to face. A vital blow that flows these tears down my cheek. I try so hard to reconstruct a life of happiness but no matter the size and strength it seems to come crashing down. What have I ever done to recieve the tearing down of this sickened heart? ( Read more... )

well heres time for a long awaited update. Well Remains Of Troy has played about 3 shows in the past week. Doing good and having amazing shows. Right now we are contemplating where and when we are gonna record some new songs. Me and Vanessa are doing great. I never thought I would love this girl as much as I do but I honestly can say shes ( Read more... )

Well still trying to find a permanent place of living. Still bouncing around from house to house but it beats staying on the street. I just want to thank everyone who has been so supportive in this time of need. Im so thankful you all are helping me out. It times liek this when you realize that friendship is a word that you should hold dear to you ( Read more... )

Well alot of thing have happened the past few days that some of you may not know about. A couple complications have arisen withme and my current living situation. I was forced to find another place to call my home. It's a very shitty situation to begin with but friends have been very supportive and helpful in my search to find a place of permanence ( Read more... )

Sometimes things just tend to step way and frustrate you. Theres a loop hole in every system. You try and do your best and then it gets taken for granted. Like as if its never good enough. Why is it always this way? Is it how human nature is supposed to be? People never take time to realize that they are actually bringing you down with words and ( Read more... )

You tend to realize how much of a mask people can put on when faced with laughter or scolding. You meet people that go and say one thing and you witness their words turn to a bold face lie. You sever friendships for reason. Then you claim to despise them and when no one is around you tend to wander back to people you talk shit about when they ( Read more... )