I stood there screaming inside ( Read more... )

Time is ending
Dreams are drowning
Life is spinning
Everything is out of control

I can't breath
I can't swim
I can't fight
I can't stand

My Dreams are ending
My is drowning
My world is spinning
My life is out of control

I gasp
I struggle
I fight
I crawl

In the end no of it matters
In the end nothing we do makes a difference
In the end there is no free will
In the end ( Read more... )

Sometimes I just want to scream 
I am not who you want me to be
I am not strong nor am I weak
I am not perfect neither am I a mistake
I am not honest or a liar
I am not a bitch and I am not a sweetheart
I am not a great beauty or a hideous hag
I am not a genius or an idiotic bumbling fool
I am not an award winning hero or a coward hiding from his own  ( Read more... )

A wish or two ago
I closed my eyes
threw open my arms
and held on tight

as I said good bye

A wish or two ago
I felt my heart beat

for I finally felt free

A wish or two ago
I let myself fall

and learned to laugh

A wish or two ago
I felt the change come
in the midnight air

A wish or two ago
I closed my eyes
threw open my arms
and held on tight

as I ( Read more... )

A little girl in second grade was sitting with the rest of her class listening to some lady talk. The lady was asking everyone what there hair color was. Then she asked the little girl with sad brown eyes and strawberry blond hair, the little girl replied "dirty dish water blond" not understanding the snickers from her fellow classmates.

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Gacked from 
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So I started a new job last week. It is only part-time M-F in the mornings. I am the new "Meal Site Manager" for Mid-Florida Community Services / Leesburg Senior Center. ( The Meals On Wheels company ( Read more... )

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She's not old enough yet...  
kept running through my mind last night. In all honesty, still is. Last night while eating dinner, my precious little baby girl (all right so she is really a precocious 7 year old) informed me:

"Mommy I got my first kiss from a boy today!"

I very intelligently and eloquently replied:

HUH!!

After the long, very long, time ( Read more... )

Is it so wrong to want someone who will want you. To not only be a 3rd or 4th choice, but a first or even 2nd. To be remembered, To be wanted. By ANYONE, a parent, a friend, a lover ( Read more... )