Dear Diary ( Read more... )

God I feel sick as hell. My nose is running so bad that it's starting to drip all over my jacket. It's cold outside too. I always said that I wanted it to be cold because I miss it. It's actually kind of refreshing to try to bundle up and keep myself warm. The air seemed to be a lot more crisp, and it's nice. Yesterday I could have slept all day ( Read more... )

I start to wonder about my life in general. I want to be a better programmer and be more consistent with my schoolwork. I just feel like there's so much happening in my life though that I can't focus that well. My day yesterday was complete and utter hell. This is what happened in order ( Read more... )

My life feels like a living rollercoaster right now. I have all of these school courses to try to learn, coordinating group projects for my Systems Software and Computer Science II class, trying to deal with the emotional blows and confusion from DJ, and trying to gather myself together for an interview on Wednesday for a Computer Science ( Read more... )

This is my first week back in school after three weeks of rest from my summer classes. For some reason, I feel much better and more hopeful for things now than what I did when I first started here at UCF. Maybe it's because i've grown used to how the school does things, where every building I go to is, and also I know a few people on the side who ( Read more... )

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I have forgotten about writing in this journal. I need to get some thoughts out before I feel too horrible about myself ( Read more... )

I'm finally at UCF! Yay! I'm so happy just to be here. I've been attending my last couple of classes, and they don't seem too bad! The only class that I really dislike the most is my Computer Science lab because it's really disconnected from the rest of my schedule, being 3:30-4:20 in the afternoon. Yuk. I've gotten all of my books except for my ( Read more... )

The Garden of Everything, where one's soul can rest in such spiritual bliss that the reality of problems, turmoil and dealing with one's past can begin to blend away. The earth and it's bed of flowers caress the tired muscles, celestial skies all around are shimmering with blue space, not a cloud in sight, not a shadow in distance. There you lay ( Read more... )

I think i'm beginning to find out who I am, which is very scary. As I move onto UCF and begin to move out, you start to realize what your strengths and weaknesses are. You become obsessed with school, studying and the works. At least I did. I just want to succeed and not be like how my family currently is. My older sister was living here at the ( Read more... )