With you, I lose myself
Without you, I find myself...
Searching to be lost again

Well nothing has really been figured out... me and him talk about everything... except that comment he made about how he knows he would hurt me. he was sober when he said that so he can't blame it on alcohol... but now anytime i bring it up he gets pissed at me. i really can't figure him out lately... but then saturday night, we were both very ( Read more... )

Well if you look back to May 11th 2004 you'll find an entry where i talked about a guy i used to like a lot and how we talked and finally i felt nothing for him. well we started talking on the phone again about 2 months ago and it's not nothing anymore and i hate it! i have actually cried because i don't want to like him... i'm so scared of him, ( Read more... )

Ok, so updating took a little longer than I planned on. For one of my classes I have to write in a journal a couple times a week so I have another journal where I've been venting. I have this feeling when midterms hit I might die... it's gonna be horrible because I'm just barely getting by as far as school goes right now so when all these tests ( Read more... )

ok just a quick update since i haven't updated FOREVER! pitt lost in alabama... i was very sad, but i'm basically through w/ the healing process.. but we had a blast! my rachel had a baby girl yesterday morning so i'm going back to KC today to see them... i'm so excited! and then i'm going to a slumber party at "great wolf lodge" which will be ( Read more... )

That's right... we're heading out Thursday night and we're on our way to Florence, Alabama to (hopefully) watch our Gorilla's take the title!!! To say I'm excited is an understatement... it's gonna be a blast, especially if we win. So right now I'm sitting in the library trying to get completely caught up on all of my classes so that when Thursday ( Read more... )

Ok... so it's 6:30am and I'm awake... not only am I awake, I've been awake since 5am... maybe I'm just excited for the big game today.... if Pitt wins today then we're heading to 'Bama next weekend to go for the title!!! This town is gonna be crazy tonight if we win... and I don't even wanna imagine how it'll be if we lose, it's a scary thought. I ( Read more... )

My advisor is a DUMBASS!!!! at pitt we have to get advisement numbers from advisors before we can enroll... well i got my number 2 days ago, and then got up at 7:45 this morning so i could make sure to get into all of the classes i needed, and guess freakin' what... SHE GAVE ME THE WRONG NUMBER!!!! so i called her 3 times... finally had to get ( Read more... )

YEA!!!!! Undefeated! MIAA Champs! All home playoff games! BEAT NORTHWEST!!!!!!! Ok so needless to say i'm just a little excited about pitt's big win on saturday! We hadn't beat northwest since 1996! and we both went into this game undefeated... us as #1 in the nation and NW as #2 in the nation... so it was a pretty intense game, not to mention it ( Read more... )

Well my favorite holiday is over :( but it was a blast! i guess the fun part wasn't even on halloween, it was the halloween party on saturday! it was so fun! nothing too exciting happened, just danced and drank a little and hung out w/ friends, but it was still a good time, can't wait to get the pics back! and as a citizen of this country i'm gonna ( Read more... )