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dream log
spent most of last night dreaming that my grandmother died and the ramifications of having to deal with the aftermath. sitting here eating dinner I JUST NOW realized that I was dreaming about the Grandmother that died a few years ago. -
NYE
What a freaking fantastic party. I got to try out a full-body suspension. Gave out a few massages, had good conversation, laughed, danced, and just really relaxed. I'm going to be paying for it tomorrow as my tendonitis is already flaring up. But still, just amazing and wonderful. -
New Year's Dread
I spent Xmas with my family. It served to convince me that the doctors are right and that Mom really isn't long for this world. They're pretty positive that she won't make it to 2012. I have this gut feeling that when she dies, the grief will kill both my dad and grandmother as well. I do not look forward to this next year. -
poetry
It never stops
I can clamp down the fear
I can lock away the pain
But sooner or later the dam breaks
The damn damn damn damn dam
And soon torrents of emotion will spill forth
Whitecaps of rage, eddies of hope
Swells of passion, waves of anguish
Soon the broken walls are revealed
The cracks and holes exposed
The waters recede
And my tears will dry -
whoops
Odd night. I went to a dance-club for the first time in over a year. Got in for free, so I decided to spend a little moolah on some drinks. Rapid-succession - Coke&goldschlager, Coke&amaretto, buttery nipple test-tube shot ( Read more... ) -
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I really don't deal well with disappointment ( Read more... ) -
Mood swing
October has always messed with me. This is my favorite month, my favorite time of year. I'm horny as hell ( Read more... ) -
overthinking
Went to a fantastic campout. Went to a ritual every single night. The Labyrinth ritual was exceptionally moving. I met someone and got very close to her very fast. The first night was beyond amazing. We danced, our energies were blended extremely well, and we both were satisfied thoroughly despite not actually going all the way. It really was, for ( Read more... ) -
Noting the weather
The night outside ( Read more... )