you know im just going to come straight out and say how i feel its not like hardly anyone reads this... im basicly lost.. im in love with 3 people. 2 dont know it. i miss david. hes changed a lot and i just really miss him. i miss jacob. a lot. he basicly ignores me now and acts like idont exist. and then theres kevin. i just. i dont know what to ( Read more... )

well.. im finally coming to lakeland tihs week

as i watch the cold blood drip from my veins u.u

can anybody stop the bleeding?

life is still pretty fucked up but but but theheheh im going to see lizzy woot woot again on friday yayz

yeah so.. nothings going good. everythings fuckedl. im a wreck i wrote some stupid note on monday and had to go to the hospital and almost had to be evaluated. no1 will just fucking leave me alone. to much shit is going on right now between me lizzy and kevin. its not good either. ive started cutting again really bad kevin made me send pictures ( Read more... )

right now things arent going to well.. there really bad actually.. but i love kevin thehe thats all that matters. and im in second period i feel like shit.. i want to go home

* tears *

i love you kevin thehe

i have myspace.. hehe
lizzy made it shweeeet

so its official.. im going in december to see kevin !! yay im excited rainey i want you to come with me please.. he wants to meet you really bad and david to ! hehe fun fun ( Read more... )

i fucked up.. again. i love kevin, i really do hes awesome i trust him someone for once who i actually trust. he wanted to know what was wrong i warned him. i fucking warned him that it would be to much i opened up he insisted on my telling him cuz he wanted to help , i told him and of course hes worried out of his fucking mind and hes stressed now ( Read more... )

I try so fucking hard for him to notice that i love him or at least i think i do, and i want to.. i want to be with him. i feel like he doesnt notice it. i feel like he doesnt give a shit anymore. yeah i know im dumb for loving him, but i really do i want to be with him but its never going to happen. i sit there on the phone trying as hard as i can ( Read more... )