It's been 4 years since even Bripie posted .

Even though everything should be perfect right now.

I still feel not good enough. Nothing I ever do feels enough.

It's hard every day to find anything worth living for.

Even the things I most enjoy, nothing brings me joy anymore.

Am I dead inside completely now?

I can see no one uses this any more.

Which makes this perfect.

I am not good today.

A longer post to come later

Even surrounding myself and forcing myself to focus on the positive doesn't fix my brain.

I am in trouble.

And very sad.

I dont want to be alive

Even though I don't have a job right now, it might be ok ( Read more... )

Im in a downswing again. It's a pretty hateful wretched one, and I don't like it.

Im freaking out.

So, I got baker acted again.

Hooray depression?

All my cards are close to my chest now.

Nobody reads LJ anymore, right? So, I'm safe, right? Good.

I am keeping all my secrets to me. Because really, what the hell does anyone know about me to try to help? You can't help me, what do you even know about me?

So I'm sinking again, gladly and miserably at the same time. I'm disappearing with the faeries. ( Read more... )

Yesterday was kinda suck ( Read more... )

Still looking bright. I think I'll start using this again more often, since everyone else seems to be done with it. It will be easier to track myself, since I am in serious need of it, and do not have a small diary to write in ( Read more... )

Where is everyone who said they would listen ( Read more... )