When was it you realized that you are someone you hate more then words can ever say, more then you're body could feel or you're mind ever think? It hurts and brings me to my kness that I know after 21 years of living who I'am and where my blood lies. My father the one person who I never think about on this earth, the very reason I live today, is ( Read more... )

Wow what a very werid week! I cannot think of anyone having a more fucked up 21st Birthday then I have. I had a pretty fair deal of drama during the week but it all played out very well between everyone. I got to get really fucked up for 2 days and got to see and do some funny shit. But out of all of it I had to find something out that nearly drove ( Read more... )

Well I'm going on the 6th night tonight on partying and holy fucking shit an'I sore and sleepy lol. Lat night was great at The Drink but then sucked when we had to leave cause everyone had no clue what the fuck they were doing. I swear most of these people are so dumb about planning shit. Either way we all are having a big ass party again tonight ( Read more... )

Gah! What a damn night..Chris, Mike and I went all the way to Nashville to go see a club and hey the club was pretty damn good I mean very nice and tastful place just the people that where there were kind of werid and creepy I think about 8 or 9 people got thorwn out by some big ass guys within the 4 we were there. Ross's B-Day was a few days ( Read more... )

I hate this dame thing this is the 2nd time I have tried to write this lol so here we go again. Today I started to think that I really need to talk to Father Mike so I called him up and asked to meet with him later on in the week so I hope that he can see me. I really want a new turn in my life you know so that I can be who I really want to be and ( Read more... )

Well went to check out some jobs today and I have to wait for tomorrow to go back but o-well. I went to Men's Warehouse today and treated myself lol well I treated myself to $125 of stuff but hey I got 3 kick ass dress shirts and damn they are sharp as hell on me! Mom was not to pleased about it but hey I can work back the money in a week or so. ( Read more... )

Why I do things to fuck everything up I don't think I'll ever know but I can only learn from them and hope for the best afterwords. What I feel know is not so much pain for myself but the pain that I caused...Thats what keeps me up at night and I know I desirve much much wrose for doing something so dumb and pointless to someone that I care so much ( Read more... )

Well let's see another job gone but another will rise in oh say a few days lol. Guess we will see how long the next one will last once I get it. People are at it again it seems but then again when are they not there's always something to be pissed off about or at least annoyed with I know how that can go sometimes. I did not get to go PT today with ( Read more... )

How do I work? There's a good ?, Something I have been wondering a long time now. Who care about people when they do not even care about them self's really who give a shit I can't figure it out for the life of me. It's beining to feel like it never really mattered and maybe thats the way it is supposed to me, maybe it's the way it has to be cause ( Read more... )

Got a new haircut and got my suit dry-cleaned for this weekend. Not working today which really fucking pisses me off like no other but O-well. Everyone is getting into their own shit, there is ''drama'' everywhere about everything I mean why does everyone care so much it's only dumb-ass shit and even when it is somehting bit it can be handled very ( Read more... )