i have a meeting with my guidance counselor tomorrow. i don't know what's gonna happen. me and my mom were talking today. i think i'm gonna drop one of my classes and try and fill some requirements this year and graduate early, by next fall. i only need health, earth science and english 4. that would be good. either that or drop a class this year, ( Read more... )

yea, so, i'm pretty sure it's over. i was soo happy for once. i thought i fit in, i was stable and my mood swings were basically under control. i thought i would be fine. i thought i would last until at least college. ya know, atleast until i really had to deal with any major stress on my own. it's been barely more than a year since i've, well, i ( Read more... )

i spent last night at steph's dorm last night. first i went to western. that was really really interesting. the band was good, yeea, not as good as they normally are, but good. the gaurd on the other hand. it was a cross between either making me die laughing, or puke numerous times in a row. they were so unbelievably horrible. they mixed the gaurd ( Read more... )

it's been a looong time since i updated. i guess i've been really busy. it's the same old shit, school, gaurd, dance, homework, sleep, dance, school, gaurd, dance, etc. yea, i get about 5 hours of sleep a night at most. then i have the extreme emotional stress from gaurd and finally really liking a guy for more than just physical reasons for the ( Read more... )

finally started doing my chem work. it's not that bad, other than i feel like my brain is about to fall out ( Read more... )

i have had a very very long two days. yesterday i drove all around grahm and burlington and chapel hill doing shit. i had to wait in line for an hour and a half for a parking spot. i was about to kill something. then i had to go to the dentist then the eye doctor, but thats not counting all the driving inbetween i did. then today i had fun for a ( Read more... )

so, as now i'm back from band camp, i'm used to working out for about 10 or 11 hours a day. and now i have nothing to do. i just did about half an hour on flag and rifle (mostly muscle exercises, basics, and tosses), then did 200 crunches, 30 push-ups, and 40 tricep push-ups. now i want to go jogging. i think i am. just gotta go change into some ( Read more... )

i'm home, i'm home, i'm home. i am sooooo happy to be home. other than my mom being here and all. i hated band camp, it was horrible. i got about 5 seconds away from kicking my captains ass and quitting. if u want details, im me ( Read more... )

leavin for band camp in a few hours. it's gonna be hell. i found out what room i'm gonna be in, and who my neighbors are. yes, so the captain who is sooo stupid is on one side, and sam is on the other. i'm going to freak. not only that, but i have to be at the band room early tomorrow to do normal flag equipment shit, but of course. i'm dreading ( Read more... )

i'm moved in, my room is painted and i'm sleeping at the house now, and i think i'm gonna die. i want to kill everyone around me. but it's getting better, i guess. i dunno, i've stopped freaking out and screaming at the slightest thing that pisses me off. my nightly drives help ( Read more... )