surgery went fine. besides teh large amounts of pain and breaking a nurses hand. they didnt numb me up or sedate me . so yeah, i felt EVERYTHING. i cried, a lot. i have a big bruise on my back, but other then that im fine, still kinda stiff. i have a doc appointment in like 2 weeks to hear about the fusion and if its needed or not *crosses fingers ( Read more... )

i had surgery today ( Read more... )

okay so ( Read more... )

joeyBALONEY 86: God is an asshole. Jesus

Auto response from laydeejae xo: stressed

thanks jus <3 ( Read more... )

jo went home today ( Read more... )

so, today ( Read more... )

Jo's here, so i'm happy.
shes here til monday morning.
we're having easter dinner with Elsa, Aiden and Chris.

Nate never showed, but had good reason.
i might see him next week.
Justin hasnt called me in almost 2 days.
Marco's has one hell of a beating headed his way.

Next weekend: Going to westfield state to be with my twin<3 ( Read more... )

OKAY, I HAVENT SLEPT IN FOUR FUCKIN DAYS. THIS HAS GOT TO STOP, IM SO EXHAUSTED, FROM EVERYTHING. IT SEEMS LIKE ALL MY ENTRIES ARE TOTALLY DEPRESSING NOW!! UGHH WHAT THE FUCK?! MOMS GOT A NEW GUY: COMPLICATED LIKE YOU WOULDNT BELIEVE. SHE'S STILL STRESSED AND HAD ANOTHING MINOR MINOR HEART ATTACK. SHES NOT EVEN 40 YET. JUSTIN - UGH. WE HAVENT ( Read more... )

sooo, im still not sleeping. and it sucks. i dont know what teh fuck is wrong with me. i guess, i just have too much on my mind. things with mom and friends and relationships and such. pete's been calling me, IMing me and such, and i feel pressured to get back with him and it sucks. cuz i know if we get back together, we're just gunna end it..again ( Read more... )

sooo, i havent slept in damn near 4 days. it sucks. and its a nice day out, so i cant sleep cuz i feel like i should be out...doing something ( Read more... )