dont make me feel so alone in this
as it is i keep swining manicly from feeling like i've got everything under control to feeling like i'm totally losing it

you think you've pushed all those old feelings aside and then you stumble across something and BAM! the curtain is pulled back and you realized they've just been covered up. I made it very clear that i was hesitant because of the old saying "fool me once shame on you. fool me twice shame on me" well if i'm ever made a fool i dont take it very well ( Read more... )

i dont like always living on the edge of possibility. he cheated on me before. it was a long time ago though. But she admitted to him that she's only dating her current bf for his money. and she cheated on him all the time in the past. i think it's especially trashy for a girl to cheat on a guy, especially one who didnt deserve it. so if it's been ( Read more... )

i came across something i didnt want to see. trent and i were driving to go out to eat the other night and a sugarland "stay" came on the radio and i was singing it and trent switched the stations. i told him i like that song he was like "why? i can only listen to something like that when i'm sad" i told him that you dont have to be currently ( Read more... )

I've forgotten this. Life has taken me all over the map. (not geographically speaking, but in every other aspect) I haven't spoken to the boy who did me in in over a year and a half. You have to stop ingesting poison if you ever want to feel better. I graduated. I moved out into my own big house. I have a good healthy relationship. I know who my ( Read more... )

i'm terrified right now. i need you to be here for me. we're in this together.

so i cant shake this feeling. no "love u", no heartfelt apology. I want to ask him what he expects me to do, how he expects me to handle it. i know this is the end. i was up crying 1/3 of the night.. the other two thrids i was wanting to throw up from the nauseous feeling of knowing what our talk today will be about. i'm going to request that he ( Read more... )

see i've decided that as soon as i ramble about a guy im dating or talking to on this is the moment its doomed. sha-zam! i figured it out! lol my solution? only complain here-it'll get rid of the bad ones.

im just rolling with it... yea so idk..something about him is very calming. Its different- with him its not like "lemme wait and see where it goes and wait to see how i feel about him" all those feelings that ive waited for and never came are sneaking up on me. All hte unexplainable crap id pull on every guy of just lettin my phone ring and make ( Read more... )

so last night sara getting in my face over a buncha offlat out crap people have been talking. saying i was all over mike, n friday i was all over zach and then sat i was all over ken. me n ken are talking...as for the other two if giving them a hug and talking and joking around is considered being all over them then yea i guess im guilty. i think ( Read more... )