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On clarity
Sometimes i'm acutely aware of existence. These moments of clarity are welcome blessings…
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Forti-tude
I erected these walls ( Read more... ) -
On reality and truth
I don't care how funny I am or how much fun I am, there is a truth that combats my reality and confuses my actions and thoughts and that is that I am a misanthrope. Like House, i hate to be around people but I also hate to be without the few that I like. I take life's hard lumps with a sneer because that's what a hard life will do to some people. I ( Read more... ) -
On goodness
I'm full of hate. Like a boil lanced, I seem to be seeping bitterness, resentment, and rage. I like none of these feelings but I'm allowing them to flow freely.
If were good, then perhaps I won't be any more. If I was never good, then I'm finally coming into truth.
What's become of me?
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On society
I've been a part of society now sense last November and more and more I find it confusing and, at times miserable. Was I happier alone and secluded? Sitting in front of my television watching television, surfing the net, and entertaining my own thoughts? I wonder, I wonder. Knowing what I know now, I wonder, but in that wondering I know I cannot ( Read more... ) -
Anger
I am going to be selfish and spoiled and pouty and whiny and mad. I want what I want and what i want is sometimes for things to do what I think they should.
I want Kevin to stop being shallow so we can date, I can get laid and have all my intellectual need met. I want people at my job to stop being stupid. I want the fucking cable company to hurry ( Read more... ) -
Sleep by My Chemical Romance
Interpretation Sometimes sleep gives us no rest. Fears of dying or the inability to control the horrors in our mind are made worse by the fear that we'll never wake up.
The world tells you to be a marytr but do you really end up as one? I didn't and I don't regret it so don't feel like you should feel sorry.
Why are you grieving me, I regret ( Read more... ) -
Hitobito
My life is not particularly deep though i don't consider myself shallow. I do spend a lot of time in an introspective haze, fine tuning, tweaking, carefully maneuvering aspects of myself to build a better me. I try very hard to eliminate sinful, wrong, and detrimental aspects of myself and I think it has made socializing difficult. People now ( Read more... ) -
Temple at Solitude
My body is my temple, i go there to pray for better days ( Read more... ) -
The curse of mania
I press hard on the brake The car doesn't slow Slow acceleration Always going faster until The world is blurring in colors Emotions, events, and lost time I cry out but i'm going too fast My words manifest in a pile of trash In the middle of the floor That i will step over until i crash Burn Sink Stop.