Why it is that I seem to have my pick of guys who will throw themselves at me and yet it's the ones that don't seem to give a shit that I fall for? Why do I seem to want this unhappiness ( Read more... )

I'm upset that life didn't and isn't happening the way I wanted it too, I'm upset that I'm not a lot further on in life right now than I am. I'm upset that people are selfish and that the two men I've ever really loved in my life are exactly the same and they both broke my heart and left me to discover the world.

I'm so tried of being left behind...

What I need is an omniscient voice to illuminate me and to inform everyone that this one has value.

My heartbeat beats me senselessly. Why's everything got to be so intense with me. I'm trying to handle all this unpredictability in all probability.

Sometimes I look down at my hands and I am reminded that I am getting older...

On the way to school this morning I gave away my breakfast and lunch. How did this happen, I'm hungry now and want that banana ( Read more... )

I'm trying to decide if I want to go out and see a movie or just go to bed. I've not really enjoyed today much at all. It's been a very lonely day. I think I'm very good at putting on a happy front a lot of the time. I think it's bad when you go through your day and keep yourself from crying 1/2 the time and people don't even know. It just hasn't ( Read more... )

I just almost choked on an Echinacea pill. And to think those things are supposed to help keep me from getting sick and instead they're trying to kill me! It totally lodged itself in my throat and caused all the water I was trying to wash it down with and the pill itself to launch back up my throat. Thankfully, I knew what was happening and instead ( Read more... )

I just downloaded James Blunts latest album "All The Lost Souls"... and I have to say... I think this man is like in my head or... sometime. Like, if I were a man, I would be James Blunt. Like... he's part of me living in someone else's body. Ya, I know that sounds ridiculous. It's just that all his song, the lyrics are so spot on to the way I'm ( Read more... )