Okay I'm making a new lj, so make sure to see if I added you.

Are you always trying to make me feel worthless like I shouldn't be living? I know I'm worthless and I know that I'm not that smart. I know that nobody cares about me anymore. But do you always have to make me feel like I should die? You made me get all dressed and ready to go just to tell me that I'm no good. Thanks really. I love your ( Read more... )

All I can think about is how much I want to marry you.

I never thought it would seriously be this hard. I feel sometimes like the relationship isn't going to work out... all this space and not hearing a word from anyone. I dunno, I carry my cell phone with me everywhere just hoping he's going to call me... granted it's only been 2 weeks. I'm going to stay with him no matter what, it's just if I were ( Read more... )

Yesterday I painted my whole room... all I need to do is fix some of the areas where the paint came off and then I'm going to move my room around ( Read more... )

I'm such a nerd instead of playing my iTunes, I'm going around to people's myspaces and if they have good songs I listen to them... like Michelle's, I like her song ( Read more... )

I'm gonna go puke. I feel so ugh. I should prolly eat considering the last time I ate was 2 pm yesterday. I went to sleep with a headache and woke up with a headache. I need to find something to take. Maybe I'll eat an apple ( Read more... )

I had another dream about him. This time he came home and surprised me. He hugged me so much and kissed me. The other dreams have been him being home or him calling me. I can't seem to sleep anymore... I hate this. I want to go back to sleep. I'll take Nyquil one day but that stuff doesn't do anything for me.

I left school with a smile on my face, I never go anywhere by myself with a giant SMILE on face. Fucking good day man. I love Miss Michelle Marie Rothwall. I'm totally going to marry her somehow... haha. Whatever ( Read more... )

So I think I'm going CRAZYYY! I was making flashcards for my medical vocabulary final and I started dancing around when I couldn't find the word. Oh BLAH. My head is killing me, my mom said it's due to stress. GOOD FREAKING NIGHT (oh and I love you).

I miss him... I keep looking outside sometimes and think he'll be there.