So I just need to take a fucking chill pill. He's not going to leave me. And I'm not going to get pregnant. Oh I'm way too paranoid. It's going to ruin everything one day ( Read more... )

So I'm going to kill this fucktard in my group because he's stupid and ruining our WHOLE project. Why bother to get together 3 days before our 20 minute presentation is due? Fucker. You're going to die. I think he made this one girl in my group cry. Uh hello, get this through your head, nobody likes you, so just DIE ( Read more... )

I miss him so much. I love him so much. My last few days with him were just amazing, even though we didn't even do that much. I went over to his house on Thursday and I'm trying to think of what I did, I know I laid in his bed a lot and watched him play videogames. I came over to his house almost crying that day and just being around him ( Read more... )

Right now I want to die. If it didn't hurt to cut myself or to anything deadly to myself, I would do it. I give up. I'm going to fail out of college. I'm ruining my own fucking relationship. I suck at work. I just don't care anymore. I'm blaming Jordan when he hasn't done anything wrong. I want to punch my computer. I can't type my fucking ( Read more... )

I didn't get into the Pharmacy Tech program.
I feel so stupid.

Everything is my fault. I wish I could just die or get hurt badly.

This weekend in all wasn't so bad. Friday was a whatever day at work, as usual. I really do hate working there. Anyways. Jordan came to my house, met Pete and Jaci and all the little people. All they did was talk and we were like ehhh whatever, and then went to bed. On Saturday we bummed around until 12 or so and then we went to the mall and ( Read more... )

Yesterday while I was on lunch eating my dum-dums (oh gosh I love saying that word!), Jordan and Walter came up which kind made me feel surrounded. Anyways... Walter told me some guy came back to Rental to tell them he thought I was really hot. Now isn't that just GRAND. I don't care. I haven't given Jordan his scrapbook. This one chick got a ( Read more... )

All I ever do is fail my tests even if I do study! GRR! I hate school sometimes, all I want to do is just drop out but I won't ( Read more... )

I don't mean for my entries to be so depressing... but I just need to vent. Oh but I can't find my cell phone. Great ( Read more... )

Yesterday I wasn't having a good day, so when I went into the work, I really didn't feel like talking to everybody. Everybody (okay so maybe like 7 people) asked me what was wrong. I kept telling everybody nothing was wrong because in some truth it was true, I just wanted to be left alone. Jordan kept coming up asking what was wrong, or randomly ( Read more... )