Okay so my entries are starting to sound bi-polar. Whatever. I hate writing papers about my emotions that I have little or no control over. Apparently, a lot of people say when I get frustrated I close myself off from the world and won't let anybody in, and then I get really depressed (that's what my assistant manager said). This only has to be ( Read more... )

Right now I feel so paranoid. I think he's going to break up with me. Ugh. Or else I'm just bugging him.

I DONT KNOW WHAT TO DO.

All I wanted to do was be with him. Being to able touch his body and feel its warmth. Being with him makes me feel loved and not feel as worthless as I feel most days. Sometimes I feel myself starting to depend on him a little more than I should which I shouldn't be doing because that would cause me to be dependant on people. Today though felt ( Read more... )

Sometimes I think too much about a future that isn't going to happen.

Words are simply surprising sometimes, especially when you say something that you would never say but only to hear the same thing back (not the normal 3 words).

One week of only kissing, I'm a cheater.

School starts tomorrow and I'm going to be rather lost.

I feel like I'm a cloud.

So around 1 in the morning, I started waking up every hour...ugh! Finally at 6:30, I went downstairs and slept... I love putting what I got for Christmas as a future reference for myself ( Read more... )

I wish I could be friends with the people I was friends with in elementary school all the way up to sophomore year in high school... everybody for me has become a distant aquintance. Ugh. I might make a small pitstop in Silverdale if I come up north. I mean yea it's partly my fault that I'm barely seeing the people I used to know ( Read more... )

So I will tell you about my fun in Mexico. I don't give a damn if you care or NOT.

( It's REALLY long but READ IT... it took me an hour to write... due to me being sidetracked! )

I walk into the house and I'm stared at like I have the plague. My mom's pissed at me because I got a C- in math. Fuck that shit. I was at Jordan's house and excited that I got a C- because I thought I had done wayyy worse... and then she was like, "You're never going to make it into the program." and "You're never going to go to anywhere in ( Read more... )

So apparently I have a urinary tract infection. Go look it up. There are 2 possible reasons I got it. I'm just SO lucky considering I go to Mexico in 7 days. I was at the doctor's and uhm the electricity went out... in a room... it was dark... I couldn't see... it was scary. I, of course couldn't pick up my prescription so I need to leave in a ( Read more... )