undescribable.

so guess what. disney in two days. im so excited.
life has been different. not bad, just weird.
but guess what, life has been treating amanda amazingly.
except today. ummmm mrs ahlswede for four hours, let me shoot myself.
today has been just a weird day. amanda was extremely moody and touchy.
i have a weird urge to eat a whole chocolate cake. :/

its funny how different people turn out to be.
you think you know someone and BAM, they
arent who they say they are. i feel kinda betrayed.

i feel like im no longer liked for who i truly am.
one person once asked me if i stood out in this
big world i lived, i said no.  i am a conformer.
i am a pleaser. why cant i just be who I want to be.

im so tired of ( Read more... )

so. ive come to the point where i have accepted my mistakes. and the screw ups i make, its okay. i am me because of them. i get nervous really easily. i cry really easily. i dont think before i do, but these things are what make me who i am. i think i now accept that i am not perfect. people love me for my imperfections. i dont make the best grades ( Read more... )

all my life ive been told by my family that im beautiful ( Read more... )

so i love getting haircuts ( Read more... )

the past few days have reminded me of what great friends i have ( Read more... )

there are few things in life that make us cry.
a fight with a friend. a fight with a parent.
a broken heart. a broken friendship.
too much stress. too much at one time.
but theres one reason few get to experience.
the tears of joy. the tears of true happiness.
when these come life seems to be finally okay.

there are few things in life that make us truly ( Read more... )

right now im eating pure brownie batter.
i love chocolate so much its crazy.
but it got me thinking, wow life is good.
i have the best friends and not to mention 
the best guy in my life, ever.
yesterday i sat on the couch and it
was like all the stress in my life and all
the pain throughout my body slowly went away.
i was absolutely exhausted and in his ( Read more... )

i wanted to post it before he did. :]
amanda's first boyfriend is christopher schutter.
he plays her songs that almost make her cry.
he means the world to her. she is so happy.