so today is my sixteenth birthday. but today wasnt the best part.
yesterday i spent the whole day with my best freind and came 
home to a surprise birthday party that scared the crap out of me.
it was the best day ever. i got icing in the face, i was surrounded by love.
watching mystery men with my best friends. laughing my butt off at my friends.
its ( Read more... )

today has been my look back day. today i looked back and remembered how things used to be. it truly depressed me. seeing how life used to be and wanting that back so much. wanting the no worries, no pain back again. wishing for that night just one more time. i dont know i just really miss first semester and the people i was close to. i miss an old ( Read more... )

yesterday i found a box of old movies.
the past two days ive been watching them.
being reminded of things that once made me laugh.
sitting on the floor of my living room and quoting  the land before time.
at that moment, ive never been happier. memories like that wow me.

today i sat and watched the buttercream gang, a movie i havent watched in ages even ( Read more... )

amanda is blessed ( Read more... )

happy new year.

i hope everyone had an amazing new year's eve night.
i hope this year is amazing.

mucho love.
amanda

first off. in a month i will be sixteen. :]
but im going to join the few that did this
because i love it, i think its awesome.

January
but then again love is underestimated in our world. u see 2 people and u say theyre in love. but their love is different from a dog and an owner. or brother and sister. or 2 friends. but then again people in a ( Read more... )

i had a rough christmas.
all my parents did was fight.
but truly im blessed to 
even have parents.
im blessed to be with my 
family on christmas.

this christmas we each got one material 
gift, and the rest were gifts that couldnt be
bought with money, or with action.

amanda got Light Grenades, finally.
but most of all she got a poem, a 
poem written by her ( Read more... )

i feel like im losing the people that are most close to me.
and i dont know what to do. :\

im a bit confused.
about everything.
school.life.family.friends.boys.
i have the greatest friends
in the world, i have a great family.
i have a great life, but still
i feel like theres so much more.

i feel like im not good enough 
for this world in many aspects.
i give 110% but i still feel
like its not enough.

when im like this i write
those depressing ( Read more... )

so my yay good better feeling 
day has just got 10 times worse.
i love boys, not.
i think im going to become a nun.