i miss you.

dammit.

holy god. just crazy (totally displaced) anxiety.

i need out.

sometimes i feel like there's something missing in my life. lately i've been wondering if that something is religion. some level of belief. i've always believed in SOMETHING, just not religion per se. maybe it's because the religion that i was raised closest to is so incredibly stifling and are more of a mob than a spiritual group. maybe if i found ( Read more... )

i have been procrastinating on writing this paper for the past 6 months.

must. start. working.

when even icanhascheezburger makes me cry, you know it's been a bad week.

I am nauseated. I couldn't sleep all night. I kept waking up in cold (or hot?) sweats. I really can't do this all day. I hate that I don't get a rejection letter, just an acceptance. Steve heard at midnight from HHMI. Please please please let this be a good day. Please.

I am completely worrying myself into a panic state. I can't focus on anything and my hands shake from time to time. Oh and nightmares galore! I need to just know! Why must they wait until March 19th to tell me? I would rather just know I wasn't accepted and then move on with my life and plan for next year. AHH ( Read more... )

22 days left until i know. i really really wish i had something more interesting to do so i wouldn't think about it at all. i'm getting more nervous by the day.

oh, and it's still snowing. hard.

Ithaca is entirely snowed in. And it makes me think of 1996 and the snow-storm that kept us out of school for days. Love it!

This weather kind of calms my fears of crazy weather change. NY and snow is a natural, whether we like it or not.

1. I am super excited to see Alice in Wonderland

2. Ithaca is snowed in, no work!

3. Ithaca is pretty but so f-ing boring. Dear god, I'm not cut out for small town living!