10 years is probably WAY too long to be harboring a crush... damn.

I GOT A TRANSPLANT! Completely out of the blue, last week I got the call. So, thinking it was a false start and not getting my hopes up I do as they ask, labs, wait around, go up to hosp, get admitted just in case. and 6am weds rolls around and oh my god im rolling into surgery. Well. alright then. Now im achy sore tired and irritable. but eh its a ( Read more... )

What is going on with people? One guy friend tells me I look like shit w/o makeup, another tells me 'well, im kinda in love with this other chick... I think... otherwise i'd totally go  for you' and a third guy friend tells me he never thought I was interested , thus he never made a pass. WHAT THE FRELLING HELL is that about? Am I really that murky ( Read more... )

It spreads, that "We're at that age, might as well couple up, get engaged, get married, be happy, have babies, be tired of sickenly happy. etc." I AM NOT A HAPPY CAMPER! Ok, well I should restate that. Im happy for them truely. Im f*cking frustrated as hell that my life is so stagnant! WTF!?

The count as of right this moment (that i can recall at ( Read more... )

I hate that Im envious of so many people in my life or on its fringes. Im 24, stuck in life, in school, without a job, a place of my own, a boyfriend, so many things I wanted to have accomplished by now. I hate bitching about my life. Im still alive so its already a success, but I am so tired of this, limbo. So many people I know are engaged, ( Read more... )

dialyhell dialyhell, what did they do to me? dialyhell dialyhell, its not your fauuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuult... ...
wow... im crazy. no wait.. im on ativan. im awesome. bday is sunday the 23rd, peeps at my place, let me know if ya need anything.

For the life of me I cannot climb out from this funk. I dont do anything, every day.. and that gets mighty old mighty quick. My family does stuff with out me, without even asking if I want to tag along! Its not a fun feeling to live in the same house and feel so alienated from ones family. Plus, I cant even bitch about it on Facebook now because ( Read more... )

I LIVE!....

And saved my password in a save, convienent place so I can consistantly log in. whew.

This life thing just seems to get more and more complicated as the days go by... doesnt seem quite fair to me. After the fiasco with my heath, boyfriend, dad, gerbil, and trip to wyoming. I get home, things go pretty good for a week, then I make a stupid choice and stress out for two weeks, (life altering bad choice) in which time the baby bird I ( Read more... )