I think this is where I've always meant to be. Safely nestled in your arms, feeling your warm hands and letting you give me that look that sends my head spinning. I've read and re-read everything in this journal many times over the last 9 years or so, and I guess this is where it's all come down to. Finally understanding myself, what I need, and ( Read more... )

Happy.

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Part 1: The End ( Read more... )

the last time i saw your father, his eyes were hollowed out by the sadness of his diagnosis. pancreatic cancer - the one cancer that has plagued my relatives for my whole life, is now a plague on yours. but when i drove down to his house on the night you told me, he was still the same man. but those hollow eyes. i will never forget them ( Read more... )

it's amazing how much time has passed since ive been on here to write something. it's inexcusable really. is this another sign of growing up? have i completely forgotten how important writing has been to me for such a long time that i've neglected the one place that i can fully, truly, divulge the things that are in my heart and on my mind? i hope ( Read more... )

i finally took a vacation from life in the physical and metaphorical sense. the wind that rushed over the cliffs of moher on the western coast of ireland only vaguely reminded me of the way your fingers trail along the wall of your father's house as you run down the stairs. the clearest water hundreds of feet below me only brought me back to the ( Read more... )

i keep typing and retyping the words i want to say, but maybe im finally realizing that "blogging" about my life only adds to the lonesome sunday morning feelings. i will never full understand why i do the things i do, but i can only hope that im making good choices for once. despite being freaked out that im turning 24 this year, i know that only ( Read more... )

i've come to terms with the fact that im going to be on my own for awhile. my phone isn't constantly going off with flirtatious texts. i have no one to call except my mother when something bad happens. but i have a bunch of very important people in my life who still need me and who i still need. but there are times like this when ive had a little ( Read more... )

i need to let go of everything i find comfortable and open my eyes to new risks. that's the only way, after all, to find new rewards. when i spent a good few minutes telling you how excited i was for my interview, you completely blew it off. regardless of how angry i am at you for that, i almost have to thank you for once again reminding me why i ( Read more... )

i had you. only for a few fleeting hours, but i did. right there, between my hands your face was there and i realized how blue your eyes still are and how much i missed the way your arms feel when they are around me. your lips are still too small but your tongue is perfect and that combined with your hands remembered the contours of my body and i ( Read more... )