happy fuckin new year.

i am disgusted with the lifestyle that has come to be accepted as normal all around me ( Read more... )

i still don't know what to expect from my night.... i am mildly intoxicated, and now am expected to clean. i'm currently enjoying a basket of cookies that has been foolishly left on kate's desk (they are my cookies now ( Read more... )

this, right here, right now, what i have, means almost as much, if not more, than what i had. the here and now is what presents me with reason to live past the loss of my past. i loved my past, and i loved it then,  but i love my here and now in at least equal fashion ( Read more... )

so goodbye my solid ground ( Read more... )

As she walked down the hallway to board the plane, a little nagging part of me felt like it was the last time I would ever see her. But I convinced myself that part was wrong, and i believed her.

And I believed her every time, every time she said it.
"I'll see you in the summer."

And I'll be waiting for the summer for the rest of my life.
Because you ( Read more... )

I do need tostop thinking about it. Truer words were never spoken,hm?
i mean, it would be stupid for me to believe i would never think of it again.that would just be kidding myself setting myself up. but i do need to put forth a much more conscious effort to keep it from affecting my day to day life. i do need to stop thinking i can call her ( Read more... )

so this is how my day will go, huh.

it promises to be depressing, and this weather only contributes to my mood. weather like this at a time like that... i wonder if it will snow.

when you left without a word
without a sound, while no one heard
you left and tore my world apart
and took with you my shattered heart
you left with so much left unsaid
you left ( Read more... )

Somewhere between happy, and total fucking wreck ( Read more... )

what would  you do if, after a night of not sleeping, you finally manage to come into focus and you realize your world is not quite as you remember it, not quite as you'd prefer it?
what would you do when you realize that up has become down, left has become right, and right has become wrong?
and what would you do when you realize that you are so ( Read more... )