570 Journal entries over almost 9 years.... Wow.. this is ridiculous.

Quiet around here. How is everyone doing?

I don't.. get it. ever.

And.. goodnight. I think I reached the point of absolute exhaustion. I'm working about half as long as I was the previous 3 weeks (read. 8 hours instead of 14 or so) and I'm ready to collapse. I think this just goes to show exactly how much I was running on caffeine, anger, pure motivation, and adrenaline ( Read more... )

I just put down this sword. Now i'm being pushed to the front again. Blade and crowd calling for blood again. Mercy on my soul....Please.

about 5 hours, to accomplish 2 things ( Read more... )

So turns out everyone involved has been betraying the things I told them in confidence, while making sure I don't betray them ( Read more... )

My car is fucking gone.
I walked around downtown for 3 hours trying to find the damn thing, thinking maybe I just lost where I parked. But nope.

Had to get a ride home from a friend, and now I'm waiting for the police to get here to file a report.

Fucking awesome.

2009 has ate so much shit I can't believe it.

and we're supposed to write from a moment of peace, recalling the intense moments. At least I've been told that. The intense moment is on the horizon though. Something is coming up thats going to destroy my life as I know it, and I'm not even sure how the hell to react, I'm not even sure what it is. I just know its there. There are too many points ( Read more... )

So.. how exactly do I stop myself from becoming the me I was years ago. I feel like I'm backsliding. The confidence is fading back away, and the paranoia is slipping back in. I didn't come this far to fall apart again. Maybe its all too comfortable. Without the daily challenges of figuring everything out, or being faced with some disaster on a ( Read more... )