The fact that I'd been so tempted to be that passive-aggressive.... I need to watch myself. Bitterness is toxic, even if I veil it in honeyed words u__u

I'm exhausted to the point of tears. Why can't I concentrate. Why can't I get my shit together. I tell others to look forward but I can't even look away from the ground myself.

The cold killed all the dandelions before I could even make a wish on one. 

T's car died on her tonight, but the me, R and S stuck around to help get it jump-started. The parallel hurts. This is what the others should have done for me, and what they wouldn't. I know the situation's different, it was much calmer tonight than it was on New Year's Eve, but that still doesn't stop the envy. It was good to see them though. I ( Read more... )

My friend R is back home from Orlando for spring break. Actually... I think Orlando is more her home now. But still. I'm happy she's back. I've missed her, she was one of my few rl kpop buddies... We're gonna have dinner on Wednesday, but with two other old classmates. R updated me on what's been going on between them, and it sounds eeriely ( Read more... )

I wouldn't call someone a friend if you don't even talk to them out of work-related settings, know their phone number or their last name or their interests and hobbies and life and feelings. But I've always been stingy when considering whether someone is a friend or an acquaintance or a coworker or what the fuck ever. But I definitely know a friend ( Read more... )

Most likely because I've lived in the same place for as long as I can remember, I can't imagine what it'd be like to be uprooted. I know there are people who move a lot, that for others it's not such a big deal. That moving is more of an adventure than anything. But isn't it hard to leave the place you've made so many memories in ( Read more... )

Ignorance is bliss, but I'm still pretty miserable. It was easier to pretend I didn't know anything when I wasn't being constantly bombarded by it all ( Read more... )

I am actually physically shaking.

Literally the only good thing about today was the fact that as I was driving home, I realized it was dandelion season.

I definitely have to blow a few wishes, even if I'm getting too old for that sort of thing.