not talking to you is hard.
talking to you even harder

i need to get out of here.  im so fucking angry right now.  angry that my parents have absolutely no backbones.  angry that none of my friends here care enough to make a fucking effort to hang out.  angry that ive spent the last few days alone with nothing to do with only harry potter to keep me company.  god damn i hate hypocrites, and its just ( Read more... )

sometimes i feel like im such a fuckup.
finally, i get what ive always wanted, but i cant help thinking theres something better out there.  it feels so right, but i cant let go of the other possibilities.

i have always hated holidays like new years and fourth of july because i always felt like they were such let downs.  like everyone expects them to be so fun, and they can never live up to their expectations ( Read more... )

today was awful. thank god its over.
but tomorrow wont be any better.

everything is falling apart

since ive been home ive cried every day.  and its been for a lot of different reasons, a lot of things have been happening.  but everything just makes me realize even more how much i hate being home.  this is why i went to school as far away as possible and it worked.  i found out i could be happy if i was 3000 miles away from this place.  if ( Read more... )

wow do i hate being home.
how long is summer?

o MIT boys....
where have you been all my life?

i'm still never good enough