I am going tobe turning 25 soon and i dont know if i am ok with that! It is a big thing for me b/c i feel like i have nothing to show for it. Nothing of supstance. So istarted thinking and that is always bad for me! What if my life was different...what if i got married instead of going off to college! what if i chose a different path...what would ( Read more... )

today i got to eat lunch with the elephants...it was so much fun and i am doing tons better then the last time i posted i was in the crazy funk and i think it is lifting for now! I am working on three things 1)going to the GYM 2)stressing less this will be best for everyone in my life esp me! and 3) not smoking. lets hope i can do all three!

i want to quit my job and run away !!! I hate GSO and i cant wait until i can leave for good! Everything in my life is the same and i think that is the main problem.

Something has got to give...i have not been this depressed in such a long time that i dont know really what to do...everything seems to happen at once that i feel like im sinking. First last friday i got in to my first accident. I was trying to get into the left hand turning lane and i side swiped that old lady. Thanks G-d no one was hurt, just ( Read more... )

What the hell is wrong with me? today sucks and im sad, no reason at all just am...im going to kill my brain with TV and then go to sleep before i have to take my dad to the air port.

I should be happy right?! i have a car now and it is great that i dont have to wait on anyone to go out and do something but the last few day have been tough. I feel so alone...like all the relationships that i have worked so hard to develop are slipping away. Lately i find myself up late at night wanting to go for a drive and run from everything. ( Read more... )

this is the last day of the month and i hope that october brings great things for everyone...so far life is on track...i got the education, licence, car, and now i need a job that pays well and i will be set! i dont want life to be easy but im glad that things are finally falling into place!G-d it is almost four and i have to take my brother to ( Read more... )

I am sick again i really thing that i am alergic to HPU! BUt that aside i did have a great weekend i knew i missed everyone but i did not relize how much until they were all there! Now i need to get better and find a job and car! I am baby sitting this week which i guess is good! I am 20 min away and i still miss everyone!

I had the best weekend i could have asked for! I really love spending time with all of my friends at hpu and the school looks amazing! I wish i could have spent more time with tony, aj and joe but it was a busy weekend! Im looking for cars and i hope to have one before the end of this moth, actually i know that i will have one before then! I have ( Read more... )

I really hate people right now...everone keeps giving me shit for caring so much for this one friend i have! "You know you are in love with him, and you want to date" im fuckin sick of it! Yes it is true that i care about him but i am in no way "IN LOVE" with him. People just cant understand how two peoples of the oppsite sex can be as close as we ( Read more... )