well todayi finally did it...i passed my driving test and i can even believe it! Ny is in trouble b/c i am now allowed ot have a car! Thanks so much to everyone that supported me!

After so many days of rain it is finally nice here and there is a full moon tonight. Sitting outside tonight actually made me feel better for the first time in a while! there is not much going on but i still wish i had some friends up here! i never relized how much i missed the same old shit! i have been watching too much tv lately...it is passing ( Read more... )

i need to sleep but i cant again!

im going c5razy tonight i really miss everyone and i want to leave. i hate that i am here right now! i think it was a bad day b/c i was not working...as muhc as i hate work it does pass the days and takes my mind off of the fact that i want to leave! I also too a trip down memory lane which almost brought me to tears...but i fought them...i feel ( Read more... )

the last week has been a little rough...i really miss everyone esp the crew and it is starting to hit me that i have a BA and im working at shop rite! i want to see the people that matter the most to me but i dont know if i can do that! i think moving up here was a mistake and i want to go hocme...but dont tell Q that b/c she will say i told you so ( Read more... )

SO i have been in Ny for more than two weeks and i have finally got a job...nothing great, i will be working in the deli at shop rite, five years of college and this is the job that i get! But i guess i have no choice b/c i dont have a car yet. I more then ever miss college and all of my friends...the hpone call are not doing to anymore i need to ( Read more... )

So in about three houre i am leaving for Joe's then NY here i come. Everyone around here is happy for me but sad that i am leaving! I am scared to death! im not sure that this is the best thing for me in the long run but is the best thing right now adn that is what matters! I cant wait to really do something other than sit arounf this house and ( Read more... )

well i have six days until i leave for new york and i have not been sleeping all that well. i dont know whether it is excitment or just nerves but i wish the days would just hurry by! not everyone is happy that i am leaving but it is time that i start doing something for myself. i have bent over backwards for everyone for years, putting other ( Read more... )

So after thinking this to death i have decided that i am in fact moving to NY in two weeks! im not sure how im getting up there just yet but i can figure that out in time! some people are mad at me for moving but i really think this is the best thing for me now and since i have made that choice i am finally happy! so by the 22 i will be on my way ( Read more... )

the last two days have been the worst in a very long time. all this free time that i have is making me crazy, with nothing to do all i do is sleep and watch tv. Im turning into my mother! i have applied to a number of jobs but nothing seems to be coming through! i need a break! so after a fight with my dad, and grandmother as well as slipping in a ( Read more... )