I cant sleep for the tenth night in a row...thanks G-d for books and tv. i need something moe productive to do, i do have an interview on monday, which i guess is a step in the right direction! i think part of it is all this shit i have on my mind and the fact that i am all alone in the house with no one. I know i can call people but it is not the ( Read more... )

I cant believe that it has been more than a week since i graduated from HPU! It is bitter sweet, i really miss everyone that i have left behind. Now that i am in the real world im not sure if im really able to cope with it! i spent most of the night awake thinking about what kind of life i have...if you know me you know what happens when i think ( Read more... )

Right not im at work and my head is spinning...i think im going ot pas sout...prob from smacking it on the register...dont ask how! Today was an ok day better than eariler in the week but not as good as i wish it was! I have stopped taking my meds when i went to boston and although i know i should, i have not started again...i think everyone knows ( Read more... )

So i am back at school and i have 111 days until i graduate...and im scared and worried a/b what i will do after school and without my friends here...but as the days pass i know that i will have them in my life for a long time and that i should not be scared for the future! Dont get me wrong i still want to run so far away and not deal some days ( Read more... )

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im sitting here in joe and john's room zoneing out (i dont think there is an e in that but whatever!) i have to find something to do right now other than be here but i guess here is all i have now...there is something a/d stairing into a computer screan that makes me overthink the world! i dont know what it is but i know it happens!

I cant sleep...it is like 6:20 and i am wide awake...i have been thinking a bunch tonight and have come up with nothing but these two:

btw...i have broken every resloution i have made!
the truth is i am in love with you! but there is nothing i can do a/b it!

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They say that whatever you are doing at the stroke of midnight will reflect what the remanider if your year will become! i am speading this new years at the Ringle's house alone with the cat! My boyfriend is MIA and courtney got sick (so she says) So me and the cat ordered food and watched Love and Sex and hung out...I love this cat! she is too ( Read more... )

im in the weirdest mood right now...not happy but not sad...just existing...and really should just sleep! but thoughts are running through my head that dont let me relax enough to sleep so i though i would write! i want school to start and this semester to be over with. I know it reality has not hit me... that i will be leaving and not be an ( Read more... )