i want you to touch me like im the lover you've longed for, place your hands on my body and feel every inch of my flesh...i want to feel you in me, coursing through my body, filling you with my every being! your body and my body becoming one and intermixing to numb the hatered in my heart! inching further to release and happiness... but you leave ( Read more... )

Life has been so crazy the last few months but now the sr. sem is over and i have my life back and thing are looking up! i want to thank my boys (Matt, John, David, and Joel) This is going to be a short entry b/c well im helping Joe study for an exam and i just want to go on the record and say that Joe Zito rocks my socks (in an non sexual way of ( Read more... )

i should have stopped when i had the chance but i took a risk and i backed fired on me! I should have listened to more people and not gone with my own selfish needs, then i wouldn't be hurting like this...i should have wanted something more for myself then a quick fix (fuck) and i would not feel like this...AGAIN...dreading the I told you so!

the year is going well..it was touch and do there for a sec but im back to being happy..thanks to Joe, Matt, John, Heather, Joel, and Matti for making this year the best to date!! I love you all so much...

Wishful thinking fuels delusional expectations
Unrequited love endows daydreams
Involuntary muscles gush with satisfaction
As disproportionate reactions mount tension
Awkwardness overtakes poised rhythm
Constriction of emotion numbs affection
Reality invades, devouring imaginary love

So everything worked out in the end!!!! the loan came through and school/books/ and everything else is taken care of! Thanks to all the paople that said it would work out! I cant wait until people are back!! yeah!!!!!!

Well at the last moment i had a loan come through....yeah me...but all of the stress has given be a cold...i got me room un packed and i love my new bed!!! well i know this is a stupid entry but my nose is stuffy and i cant think of anything else to write! watching bad tv and then bed

consciousness races
overwhelmed heart catches
pace of thoughts.
gasp of breath
anger fuels and fulfills
melancholy cramps
cross the finish line

sometimes a song says it all ( Read more... )

so im in NY and i have to tell you that although i miss all of my friends at home i love the NORTH!!! i have been spending everyday with my 3 yer/old cousin, who is one of the smartest kids i have seen. if she is being mean to you to make everything better she will call your name and say..."(your name) i like you" then give \you the biggest smile ( Read more... )