Shades (EIGHTEEN)
Title: Shades
Pairing: KyuMin
Genre: Angst, Romance, Friendship, Dark, Smut, Yaoi, AU
Rating: R
Length: Chaptered
Disclaimer: I do not own the characters and the plot. This is inspired by the novel 'Fifty Shades of Grey'
Warning: boy-to-boy relationships, language
Summary: Behind every beautiful face lie very dark secrets.
Previous Chapters:
Prologue 1 2 3 4 5 6 7 8 9 10 11 12 13 14 15 16 17
CHAPTER EIGHTEEN - A DECISION
Just like what he wanted, the people in the office are very nice. He got close to the receptionist on the ground floor, Fei. His boss, Choi Siwon, is also nice and considerate to him. He gave him lesser work because he is still new and he believes that Sungmin still needs to adjust. Sungmin enjoys Siwon’s company, plus the fact that the man is gorgeous like fuck.
However now, it was a busy day at the office. It is just his third day at the publishing company yet his works suddenly had been piling up. This is not something he is not used to; in fact, there was more work for him while he was still studying, so he is still not complaining. It also made him occupied even at home that he was not able to bond with Donghae often.
He will be lying if he’ll say that he doesn’t miss Kyuhyun. He does miss the younger a lot. The CEO was out of the country for two days now, and he’s somewhat disappointed that Kyuhyun didn’t even contact him once just to let him know that he’s alive.
Then again, why would he act like that? He’s not Kyuhyun’s boyfriend, anyways.
Sighing, he leans on the backrest of his chair and stretches his arms, moaning in contentment, only to sit straight again when his phone vibrated.
He widens his eyes for he didn’t believe that the man who he wanted to contact him finally sent him a message. It will be okay for him even if it is just a dot. At least he is fine and alive.
From: Game Freak Cho
I was wondering if you have an extra heart cos mine had been stolen.
He raises an eyebrow. And so he replies.
To: Game Freak Cho
By whom?
In less than a minute, he receives a reply from Kyuhyun.
From: Game Freak Cho
By the person who’s reading this text message. ;)
Okay, he is blushing. He never expected a cheesy pickup line from Kyuhyun. Does Ryeowook have Kyuhyun’s phone?
Again, his phone vibrates again.
From: Game Freak Cho
Is there an airport nearby or is it just my heart taking off?
This time, he continuously receives messages from Kyuhyun.
From: Game Freak Cho
Are you lost, baby girl? Cos heaven’s a long way from here.
From: Game Freak Cho
I know milk does make a body good, but baby, how much have you been drinking?
From: Game Freak Cho
I’m not Fred Flinstone, but I can surely make your Bedrock!
He was not able to hold his laughter back, earning weird stares from his officemates. He bows at them in apology, silently thanking the heavens that his boss is not around.
From: Game Freak Cho
I think you dropped something.
He grins. He knows this is a pickup line, so he is excited for what it is this time.
To: Game Freak Cho
What?
From: Game Freak Cho
This conversation. We’ll continue this tonight. Laters, baby.
He laughs hard, earning him stares from his officemates again. This time, he did not bother apologizing to them. He is still not over what just happened. Never did he think that Kyuhyun could be that cheesy to him. He finds it cute.
Feeling inspired, now that Kyuhyun finally texted him, he sits straight to resume working, but he hears Jia, the receptionist on their floor, call him, telling him that someone is waiting for him downstairs. It’s weird; he is not expecting someone for this day. Maybe it’s Kyuhyun?
But it is impossible. As far as he knows, Kyuhyun is still overseas. There is still a small hope in his heart that this is just another surprise of the younger, though.
He excitedly runs to the elevator to check on his unexpected visitor. The thought that Kyuhyun might be surprising him made him feel butterflies in his stomach. He’ll just ignore the fact that he looks like a teenage high school fangirl.
Fei points at the back of a very familiar scarlet-haired wearing a blue shirt and khaki pants. Kyuhyun is a red head now, but not as bright and attention-catching like this one has. Also, Kyuhyun’s hair is curly and short, while the tip of this guy’s straight hair strands reaches his shoulders already. He pouts in disappointment.
He walks to the unknown guy, clearing his throat before saying, “Excuse me…”
The taller man turns to him with a grin that resembles of a Cheshire cat. He immediately recognized the older man, inaudibly gasping.
“Yo.” The visitor greets with a raise of a hand.
“Heechul-ssi?” Of all people, he never expected Kyuhyun’s psychiatrist to pay him a visit at his workplace. If it was someone related to Kyuhyun, it will be either Ryeowook or Eunhyuk, not Kim Heechul.
Heechul’s face brightens. “Wow, you remembered me!”
He controls the urge to roll his eyes and say ‘Who would forget you?’ but of course, he still believes that the guy is capable of murder. And so, he smiles politely. “Hello… it’s a surprise to see you here, Dr. Kim…”
The other snorts and waves his hand. “Don’t call me, Dr. Kim, cutie pie. Heechul-hyung is fine, okay? Free to join me to have coffee?”
~0~
“I think you now know who I am.”
Sungmin merely nods as he sips his hot chocolate, loving the touch of the warm liquid on his tongue. Since he is not a fan of coffee, he normally orders his favorite chocolate on cafes. He eyes the doctor, who has his chin placed atop his clasped hands.
“I’m sure you have questions regarding Kyuhyun.” Heechul calmly says, a serious look plastered on his face.
He sighs and places the cup back on the table. “Are you going to answer it?”
The psychiatrist chuckles lowly and quickly replies, “No,” Sungmin sighs. Confidentiality, right. “Not all of it, though.” He gives the doctor a confused look when he heard the additional reply.
A smirk curves on Heechul’s lips, his question too blunt for Sungmin’s liking. “Do you like Kyuhyun?”
He was not prepared at all. He was not prepared for Heechul’s arrival, especially for that question, causing for his cheeks to blush madly.
“E-Eh?!” he shrieks not too loudly so as not to catch attention from the other customers.
“Do you like Kyuhyun?” Heechul repeats. “I will not answer your questions unless you answer mine. It’s only one. Say yes or no, and you may ask me something.”
Knowing that it is the only way for some of his questions to be answered, he admits quite halfheartedly since he is not a hundred percent sure himself. “Yes, I do like Kyuhyun.” He does like the CEO, but he knew that Heechul meant another thing.
The smirk on Heechul’s face is still there. “Love?” Now that was what he expected. Thankfully, his mind is on the Cho Kyuhyun mode.
“That’s your second question already.” He just hopes the older will not get mad. As much as possible, he wants to avoid questions that concern the heart, especially regarding his feelings and relationship with Cho Kyuhyun.
He almost jerks in slight surprise as Heechul clicks his tongue, but his face doesn’t show much annoyance. “Aish, kids these days. Fine, ask me anything, but I will not assure you that I will answer all of them since Kyuhyun is my patient. You know how my job works.”
He nods in understanding, biting his lip. “D-Do you know… about the contract thing?”
“Of course. Kyuhyun tells me everything. Well, he should.” He decides he should be nicer to Heechul.
“At what age did he start being a Dominant?”
“Eighteen.”
If he was drinking, he would have already spit it out on Heechul. So Kyuhyun started that when he was just eighteen? He should be studying at school, enjoying the rebellious teenage life instead of enjoying inflicting physical pain on men and women. Then again, Cho Kyuhyun is not your normal kid. It makes him feel terrible.
Knowing that Heechul will not answer anything regarding that, he inquires another thing, “W-Was he really gay?”
An amused chuckle escapes the doctor’s lips. “He’s a bi, honey. But he really was more interested in boys.”
“W-What’s his ideal type?” That question came out too fast even before he realized what that is. He doesn’t know why; he’s plainly curious.
To his embarrassment, Heechul laughs hard, making some people in the café look at them. “You know, his previous Subs also asked me that, but I never answered any one of them. Wanna know why?” He looks at the older in anticipation. “It’s because they look like complete bitches. Since you look innocent and you asked so cutely, how could I reject you? Kyuhyun’s ideal guy is one who looks like a girl,” They say I look like a girl, “One who can cook,” I can cook well, “And one who likes pink.” I love pink!
But then, realizing something, he gapes at the psychiatrist, blinking several times as the latter gives him a mischievous smirk.
“More questions, baby bunny?”
He puffs his cheeks, trying to distract Heechul from seeing the blush painting his cheeks. “What made him… be a Dominant?”
However now, the naughty look on Heechul’s face suddenly turns serious. He knew he had touched a very sensitive issue. “Sorry, honey, can’t answer that. You should ask Kyuhyun about it but I suggest you not to do it now.”
“Do you think he will answer me?”
“Yes, he will, I assure you. Just give him time.”
“How can I help him change, then?”
There was a pregnant pause that occurred. They just stared at each other. Under the table, he clamps his hands firmly together, silently praying that Heechul will be kind enough to advise him things regarding Kyuhyun even if he’s not the one who’s paying the doctor.
After what seemed like forever, the scarlet-haired finally speaks, his voice so low that Sungmin had to lean closer for him to hear whatever the guy will say.
“Agree to be his Submissive.”
Once again, silence enveloped the two of them.
He chokes. “W-What?!”
Heechul’s face remains stern that it scared him. He had found the guy somewhat intimidating ever since their first meeting, but that was in a kind of funny way. Now that he is seeing this side of the older man, he is more resolved on not messing with this guy.
“Be a tough Submissive. You obey him, but not all the time. Rebel sometimes, but not too much. Show him he can’t have everything he wants, that he needs to work harder for it. Be more of a challenge to him. Annoy him until he surrenders and decides to give you everything you want. Make him feel that he’ll die if you’re not around. Make him ache for your touch, not the other way around,”
He was blushing all throughout listening to Heechul’s words.
Then, Heechul’s gaze softens. “But be understanding to him. Be patient. Let him change gradually. Do not surprise him the negative way. Be a hyung to him, not just a Submissive. Be a lover. Show him that sex is not everything. Show him that he needs love more than anything else. Believe in him. Trust him. Love him. I know you can do all of those.”
It hit him that being Kyuhyun’s submissive this time will be a very hard task, now that Heechul seemed to be leaving things to him. He remembered that night wherein he had a taste of how Kyuhyun, the dominant, punishes his submissive. It was that night when he started fearing Kyuhyun, and doubting his willingness to be a property Kyuhyun.
He would love to be Kyuhyun’s, but not that way. He doesn’t want to be merely a possession to the guy, whose wants and needs need to be satisfied by him. And that was Heechul was trying to make him do. He knows Heechul’s intentions are good, but can’t he think of other ways to help Kyuhyun?
“But being a Submissive is difficult…”
Heechul sighs quite dramatically, in Sungmin’s opinion. “That’s why I’m telling you to be a tough one. Suggest some amendments to the contract. You’re wise, Sungmin. You’ll do the right decision.”
When he remained silent, the doctor continues, “I’m sorry, I know you’ve already had a sneak peek on what you might experience if you agree, but this is the only way for now. We can’t just tell Kyuhyun to stop that Dominant thing of his abruptly because he might go crazy due to the longing for it. We just have to take things slowly for him to adjust to the new situation. I’ve been waiting for someone like you to come in Kyuhyun’s life because I know you can help me.”
If Heechul is this concerned, then Kyuhyun’s case is really a tough one. Sungmin really does want to help the younger man, and he did consider agreeing to be a Submissive before. He still thinks he is not that kind to bear with that sort of pain. His heart tells him to do it, but his mind is saying no.
“I’m not saying you should do it. It is just a suggestion, my answer to your question.” Heechul breaks his thoughts.
He nods slowly. “O-Okay. Thank you… for answering…”
“Oh, by the way, you can visit Kyuhyun tonight.”
“He’s on a business trip, right?” he asks, raising an eyebrow.
Heechul playfully gasps and covers his mouth, sheepishly grinning. “Oops. Actually, that was supposed to be a surprise to you.”
“Eh? He’s now here in Korea?”
”Yup, just this morning. Oh, I know! Why don’t you surprise him instead? Oh imagine the look on his in-love idiotic face once he sees the love of his life surprisingly steps on his doorstep, looking as beautiful as ever~” the other says before winking at him. Heechul is more evil than his patient, to be honest.
“I’ll go now. Call me if you need anything, okay?”
Sungmin then finds himself staring at Heechul’s retreating back.
~0~
A tap on his shoulder breaks his trance. With wide eyes, he looks at his boss, whose thick brows are furrowed, and then, he grins sheepishly. “S-Sir…”
“Are you okay, Sungmin-ssi? You’ve been staring at the monitor for minutes now.”
He blushes; he never thought that his boss would notice that habit of his. He promised himself before that he would stop daydreaming during work, but because of his conversation with Heechul earlier this afternoon, his mind drifted away again to Kyuhyun.
He chuckles nervously. “Ah, I’m sorry. I was just thinking of something else.”
Siwon gently smiles at him and pats his shoulder. He felt awkward about it. “We should go home now. Don’t work too much if you’re feeling stressed.” He believes that Siwon is a better boss than Kyuhyun.
He nods as he turns the computer off and packs his stuff. He catches Siwon staring intently at him, making him gulp in nervousness. “Y-You don’t have to wait for me, Mr. Choi…”
A light chuckle rings on his eardrums. “Just call me Siwon when office hours are already over,” He purses his lips and nods slowly, feeling that there is a need to comply since the man is still his boss. “Where do you live? I’ll drop you off there.”
He slings the straps of his backpack on his shoulders as he faces the taller man. “Thank you for the offer, Mr… I mean, Siwon-ssi. I brought my car.”
“Aw, too bad,” Siwon laughs, and then continues, placing a hand on Sungmin’s back. It made Sungmin shiver slightly. “Let’s just go down together.”
Quickly, he strides to the elevator, making sure that Siwon will not touch him again. Of course it is awkward for him because the man is his boss. He just kept in mind what Fei told him that Siwon is normally fond of skinship towards guys.
They both stand in the elevator in silence. All Sungmin could think of was his scene with Kyuhyun before. Siwon is probably the most gorgeous man he had ever met, but he doesn’t know why he isn’t feeling what he felt with Kyuhyun now that he is with a man like Siwon.
The moment the both of them stepped out of the elevator car, he immediately bowed goodbye to the other man and ran to his car. Siwon is kind, but his weirdness is creepy.
He grips the steering wheel tight, not turning the engine on yet. Should he drive to Kyuhyun’s? If he does, what will he say? What will he do? He is aware that he acts without thinking in front of Kyuhyun most of the time. What if he will not be able to control the words he will say? Will he regret it?
Will Kyuhyun approve of this?
Sighing loudly, he starts the engine and drives to the first place that came in his mind.
He just hopes Heechul is right that he will make the right decision.
~0~
It was Nari who he first saw when he stepped inside the abode. He feels the same comfortable aura with Nari just like with Shindong, that’s why he calmed down for a while.
“Hi! Does Kyuhyun know that you’re coming?”
He smiles shyly. “No… please don’t tell him.”
Nari nods in agreement. “Ah, so this is a surprise, then?” She giggles. “He’s in his study room right now. Should I call him or you want to go there by yourself?”
“I’ll just go there. Thank you, ahjumma.” He politely bows before walking towards Kyuhyun’s study office very slowly. He is still not sure if he is doing the right thing. He is not sure if he will follow Heechul’s advice because he can just use the excuse of missing Kyuhyun if ever he decides not to do it yet. Still, the determination in him now is too strong, thanks to Heechul’s wise use of words.
As he knocks on the door, he knew there is no turning back.
The door opens, revealing a surprised Kyuhyun who gasped the moment he saw him. He controls the urge to roll his eyes.
“Oh my god, what the hell are you doing here?!” says Kyuhyun while clutching his chest.
He smirks. “Continuing the conversation we dropped earlier.” He was talking about that phone pickup line session by Kyuhyun this noon.
“Oh.”
“Aren’t you going to ask me to sit down?”
Kyuhyun maintains a blank face. “No. Sit by your own accord.” Younger says while making his way to his chair. He finally rolls his eyes as he sits on the couch in front of the study table.
“So, what brings you here?”
Sungmin inaudibly gulps, but was able to compose himself before nervousness take over him.
“Sen.”
Kyuhyun rolls his eyes.
He chuckles; he never thought teasing Kyuhyun would be fun. But then, remembering that his purpose of going there is a serious one, the smile on his face disappeared. Kyuhyun stares at him, waiting for his reply.
This is it. He inhales deeply, mentally cheering for himself before saying…
“I agree to be your Submissive.”
TO BE CONTINUED
-And so, the real angst and story starts here.
-Unbetaed. Short, crappy chapter. Ugh.
-I know I said this chapter will be fluff… but I guess it did not turn out that way cos of sudden change of plans lololol anyways, Cheesy Kyu was featured, so I guess it is still fluff kkk
-Comments are appreciated! Thank you, my lovely readers <3
Pairing: KyuMin
Genre: Angst, Romance, Friendship, Dark, Smut, Yaoi, AU
Rating: R
Length: Chaptered
Disclaimer: I do not own the characters and the plot. This is inspired by the novel 'Fifty Shades of Grey'
Warning: boy-to-boy relationships, language
Summary: Behind every beautiful face lie very dark secrets.
Previous Chapters:
Prologue 1 2 3 4 5 6 7 8 9 10 11 12 13 14 15 16 17
CHAPTER EIGHTEEN - A DECISION
Just like what he wanted, the people in the office are very nice. He got close to the receptionist on the ground floor, Fei. His boss, Choi Siwon, is also nice and considerate to him. He gave him lesser work because he is still new and he believes that Sungmin still needs to adjust. Sungmin enjoys Siwon’s company, plus the fact that the man is gorgeous like fuck.
However now, it was a busy day at the office. It is just his third day at the publishing company yet his works suddenly had been piling up. This is not something he is not used to; in fact, there was more work for him while he was still studying, so he is still not complaining. It also made him occupied even at home that he was not able to bond with Donghae often.
He will be lying if he’ll say that he doesn’t miss Kyuhyun. He does miss the younger a lot. The CEO was out of the country for two days now, and he’s somewhat disappointed that Kyuhyun didn’t even contact him once just to let him know that he’s alive.
Then again, why would he act like that? He’s not Kyuhyun’s boyfriend, anyways.
Sighing, he leans on the backrest of his chair and stretches his arms, moaning in contentment, only to sit straight again when his phone vibrated.
He widens his eyes for he didn’t believe that the man who he wanted to contact him finally sent him a message. It will be okay for him even if it is just a dot. At least he is fine and alive.
From: Game Freak Cho
I was wondering if you have an extra heart cos mine had been stolen.
He raises an eyebrow. And so he replies.
To: Game Freak Cho
By whom?
In less than a minute, he receives a reply from Kyuhyun.
From: Game Freak Cho
By the person who’s reading this text message. ;)
Okay, he is blushing. He never expected a cheesy pickup line from Kyuhyun. Does Ryeowook have Kyuhyun’s phone?
Again, his phone vibrates again.
From: Game Freak Cho
Is there an airport nearby or is it just my heart taking off?
This time, he continuously receives messages from Kyuhyun.
From: Game Freak Cho
Are you lost, baby girl? Cos heaven’s a long way from here.
From: Game Freak Cho
I know milk does make a body good, but baby, how much have you been drinking?
From: Game Freak Cho
I’m not Fred Flinstone, but I can surely make your Bedrock!
He was not able to hold his laughter back, earning weird stares from his officemates. He bows at them in apology, silently thanking the heavens that his boss is not around.
From: Game Freak Cho
I think you dropped something.
He grins. He knows this is a pickup line, so he is excited for what it is this time.
To: Game Freak Cho
What?
From: Game Freak Cho
This conversation. We’ll continue this tonight. Laters, baby.
He laughs hard, earning him stares from his officemates again. This time, he did not bother apologizing to them. He is still not over what just happened. Never did he think that Kyuhyun could be that cheesy to him. He finds it cute.
Feeling inspired, now that Kyuhyun finally texted him, he sits straight to resume working, but he hears Jia, the receptionist on their floor, call him, telling him that someone is waiting for him downstairs. It’s weird; he is not expecting someone for this day. Maybe it’s Kyuhyun?
But it is impossible. As far as he knows, Kyuhyun is still overseas. There is still a small hope in his heart that this is just another surprise of the younger, though.
He excitedly runs to the elevator to check on his unexpected visitor. The thought that Kyuhyun might be surprising him made him feel butterflies in his stomach. He’ll just ignore the fact that he looks like a teenage high school fangirl.
Fei points at the back of a very familiar scarlet-haired wearing a blue shirt and khaki pants. Kyuhyun is a red head now, but not as bright and attention-catching like this one has. Also, Kyuhyun’s hair is curly and short, while the tip of this guy’s straight hair strands reaches his shoulders already. He pouts in disappointment.
He walks to the unknown guy, clearing his throat before saying, “Excuse me…”
The taller man turns to him with a grin that resembles of a Cheshire cat. He immediately recognized the older man, inaudibly gasping.
“Yo.” The visitor greets with a raise of a hand.
“Heechul-ssi?” Of all people, he never expected Kyuhyun’s psychiatrist to pay him a visit at his workplace. If it was someone related to Kyuhyun, it will be either Ryeowook or Eunhyuk, not Kim Heechul.
Heechul’s face brightens. “Wow, you remembered me!”
He controls the urge to roll his eyes and say ‘Who would forget you?’ but of course, he still believes that the guy is capable of murder. And so, he smiles politely. “Hello… it’s a surprise to see you here, Dr. Kim…”
The other snorts and waves his hand. “Don’t call me, Dr. Kim, cutie pie. Heechul-hyung is fine, okay? Free to join me to have coffee?”
~0~
“I think you now know who I am.”
Sungmin merely nods as he sips his hot chocolate, loving the touch of the warm liquid on his tongue. Since he is not a fan of coffee, he normally orders his favorite chocolate on cafes. He eyes the doctor, who has his chin placed atop his clasped hands.
“I’m sure you have questions regarding Kyuhyun.” Heechul calmly says, a serious look plastered on his face.
He sighs and places the cup back on the table. “Are you going to answer it?”
The psychiatrist chuckles lowly and quickly replies, “No,” Sungmin sighs. Confidentiality, right. “Not all of it, though.” He gives the doctor a confused look when he heard the additional reply.
A smirk curves on Heechul’s lips, his question too blunt for Sungmin’s liking. “Do you like Kyuhyun?”
He was not prepared at all. He was not prepared for Heechul’s arrival, especially for that question, causing for his cheeks to blush madly.
“E-Eh?!” he shrieks not too loudly so as not to catch attention from the other customers.
“Do you like Kyuhyun?” Heechul repeats. “I will not answer your questions unless you answer mine. It’s only one. Say yes or no, and you may ask me something.”
Knowing that it is the only way for some of his questions to be answered, he admits quite halfheartedly since he is not a hundred percent sure himself. “Yes, I do like Kyuhyun.” He does like the CEO, but he knew that Heechul meant another thing.
The smirk on Heechul’s face is still there. “Love?” Now that was what he expected. Thankfully, his mind is on the Cho Kyuhyun mode.
“That’s your second question already.” He just hopes the older will not get mad. As much as possible, he wants to avoid questions that concern the heart, especially regarding his feelings and relationship with Cho Kyuhyun.
He almost jerks in slight surprise as Heechul clicks his tongue, but his face doesn’t show much annoyance. “Aish, kids these days. Fine, ask me anything, but I will not assure you that I will answer all of them since Kyuhyun is my patient. You know how my job works.”
He nods in understanding, biting his lip. “D-Do you know… about the contract thing?”
“Of course. Kyuhyun tells me everything. Well, he should.” He decides he should be nicer to Heechul.
“At what age did he start being a Dominant?”
“Eighteen.”
If he was drinking, he would have already spit it out on Heechul. So Kyuhyun started that when he was just eighteen? He should be studying at school, enjoying the rebellious teenage life instead of enjoying inflicting physical pain on men and women. Then again, Cho Kyuhyun is not your normal kid. It makes him feel terrible.
Knowing that Heechul will not answer anything regarding that, he inquires another thing, “W-Was he really gay?”
An amused chuckle escapes the doctor’s lips. “He’s a bi, honey. But he really was more interested in boys.”
“W-What’s his ideal type?” That question came out too fast even before he realized what that is. He doesn’t know why; he’s plainly curious.
To his embarrassment, Heechul laughs hard, making some people in the café look at them. “You know, his previous Subs also asked me that, but I never answered any one of them. Wanna know why?” He looks at the older in anticipation. “It’s because they look like complete bitches. Since you look innocent and you asked so cutely, how could I reject you? Kyuhyun’s ideal guy is one who looks like a girl,” They say I look like a girl, “One who can cook,” I can cook well, “And one who likes pink.” I love pink!
But then, realizing something, he gapes at the psychiatrist, blinking several times as the latter gives him a mischievous smirk.
“More questions, baby bunny?”
He puffs his cheeks, trying to distract Heechul from seeing the blush painting his cheeks. “What made him… be a Dominant?”
However now, the naughty look on Heechul’s face suddenly turns serious. He knew he had touched a very sensitive issue. “Sorry, honey, can’t answer that. You should ask Kyuhyun about it but I suggest you not to do it now.”
“Do you think he will answer me?”
“Yes, he will, I assure you. Just give him time.”
“How can I help him change, then?”
There was a pregnant pause that occurred. They just stared at each other. Under the table, he clamps his hands firmly together, silently praying that Heechul will be kind enough to advise him things regarding Kyuhyun even if he’s not the one who’s paying the doctor.
After what seemed like forever, the scarlet-haired finally speaks, his voice so low that Sungmin had to lean closer for him to hear whatever the guy will say.
“Agree to be his Submissive.”
Once again, silence enveloped the two of them.
He chokes. “W-What?!”
Heechul’s face remains stern that it scared him. He had found the guy somewhat intimidating ever since their first meeting, but that was in a kind of funny way. Now that he is seeing this side of the older man, he is more resolved on not messing with this guy.
“Be a tough Submissive. You obey him, but not all the time. Rebel sometimes, but not too much. Show him he can’t have everything he wants, that he needs to work harder for it. Be more of a challenge to him. Annoy him until he surrenders and decides to give you everything you want. Make him feel that he’ll die if you’re not around. Make him ache for your touch, not the other way around,”
He was blushing all throughout listening to Heechul’s words.
Then, Heechul’s gaze softens. “But be understanding to him. Be patient. Let him change gradually. Do not surprise him the negative way. Be a hyung to him, not just a Submissive. Be a lover. Show him that sex is not everything. Show him that he needs love more than anything else. Believe in him. Trust him. Love him. I know you can do all of those.”
It hit him that being Kyuhyun’s submissive this time will be a very hard task, now that Heechul seemed to be leaving things to him. He remembered that night wherein he had a taste of how Kyuhyun, the dominant, punishes his submissive. It was that night when he started fearing Kyuhyun, and doubting his willingness to be a property Kyuhyun.
He would love to be Kyuhyun’s, but not that way. He doesn’t want to be merely a possession to the guy, whose wants and needs need to be satisfied by him. And that was Heechul was trying to make him do. He knows Heechul’s intentions are good, but can’t he think of other ways to help Kyuhyun?
“But being a Submissive is difficult…”
Heechul sighs quite dramatically, in Sungmin’s opinion. “That’s why I’m telling you to be a tough one. Suggest some amendments to the contract. You’re wise, Sungmin. You’ll do the right decision.”
When he remained silent, the doctor continues, “I’m sorry, I know you’ve already had a sneak peek on what you might experience if you agree, but this is the only way for now. We can’t just tell Kyuhyun to stop that Dominant thing of his abruptly because he might go crazy due to the longing for it. We just have to take things slowly for him to adjust to the new situation. I’ve been waiting for someone like you to come in Kyuhyun’s life because I know you can help me.”
If Heechul is this concerned, then Kyuhyun’s case is really a tough one. Sungmin really does want to help the younger man, and he did consider agreeing to be a Submissive before. He still thinks he is not that kind to bear with that sort of pain. His heart tells him to do it, but his mind is saying no.
“I’m not saying you should do it. It is just a suggestion, my answer to your question.” Heechul breaks his thoughts.
He nods slowly. “O-Okay. Thank you… for answering…”
“Oh, by the way, you can visit Kyuhyun tonight.”
“He’s on a business trip, right?” he asks, raising an eyebrow.
Heechul playfully gasps and covers his mouth, sheepishly grinning. “Oops. Actually, that was supposed to be a surprise to you.”
“Eh? He’s now here in Korea?”
”Yup, just this morning. Oh, I know! Why don’t you surprise him instead? Oh imagine the look on his in-love idiotic face once he sees the love of his life surprisingly steps on his doorstep, looking as beautiful as ever~” the other says before winking at him. Heechul is more evil than his patient, to be honest.
“I’ll go now. Call me if you need anything, okay?”
Sungmin then finds himself staring at Heechul’s retreating back.
~0~
A tap on his shoulder breaks his trance. With wide eyes, he looks at his boss, whose thick brows are furrowed, and then, he grins sheepishly. “S-Sir…”
“Are you okay, Sungmin-ssi? You’ve been staring at the monitor for minutes now.”
He blushes; he never thought that his boss would notice that habit of his. He promised himself before that he would stop daydreaming during work, but because of his conversation with Heechul earlier this afternoon, his mind drifted away again to Kyuhyun.
He chuckles nervously. “Ah, I’m sorry. I was just thinking of something else.”
Siwon gently smiles at him and pats his shoulder. He felt awkward about it. “We should go home now. Don’t work too much if you’re feeling stressed.” He believes that Siwon is a better boss than Kyuhyun.
He nods as he turns the computer off and packs his stuff. He catches Siwon staring intently at him, making him gulp in nervousness. “Y-You don’t have to wait for me, Mr. Choi…”
A light chuckle rings on his eardrums. “Just call me Siwon when office hours are already over,” He purses his lips and nods slowly, feeling that there is a need to comply since the man is still his boss. “Where do you live? I’ll drop you off there.”
He slings the straps of his backpack on his shoulders as he faces the taller man. “Thank you for the offer, Mr… I mean, Siwon-ssi. I brought my car.”
“Aw, too bad,” Siwon laughs, and then continues, placing a hand on Sungmin’s back. It made Sungmin shiver slightly. “Let’s just go down together.”
Quickly, he strides to the elevator, making sure that Siwon will not touch him again. Of course it is awkward for him because the man is his boss. He just kept in mind what Fei told him that Siwon is normally fond of skinship towards guys.
They both stand in the elevator in silence. All Sungmin could think of was his scene with Kyuhyun before. Siwon is probably the most gorgeous man he had ever met, but he doesn’t know why he isn’t feeling what he felt with Kyuhyun now that he is with a man like Siwon.
The moment the both of them stepped out of the elevator car, he immediately bowed goodbye to the other man and ran to his car. Siwon is kind, but his weirdness is creepy.
He grips the steering wheel tight, not turning the engine on yet. Should he drive to Kyuhyun’s? If he does, what will he say? What will he do? He is aware that he acts without thinking in front of Kyuhyun most of the time. What if he will not be able to control the words he will say? Will he regret it?
Will Kyuhyun approve of this?
Sighing loudly, he starts the engine and drives to the first place that came in his mind.
He just hopes Heechul is right that he will make the right decision.
~0~
It was Nari who he first saw when he stepped inside the abode. He feels the same comfortable aura with Nari just like with Shindong, that’s why he calmed down for a while.
“Hi! Does Kyuhyun know that you’re coming?”
He smiles shyly. “No… please don’t tell him.”
Nari nods in agreement. “Ah, so this is a surprise, then?” She giggles. “He’s in his study room right now. Should I call him or you want to go there by yourself?”
“I’ll just go there. Thank you, ahjumma.” He politely bows before walking towards Kyuhyun’s study office very slowly. He is still not sure if he is doing the right thing. He is not sure if he will follow Heechul’s advice because he can just use the excuse of missing Kyuhyun if ever he decides not to do it yet. Still, the determination in him now is too strong, thanks to Heechul’s wise use of words.
As he knocks on the door, he knew there is no turning back.
The door opens, revealing a surprised Kyuhyun who gasped the moment he saw him. He controls the urge to roll his eyes.
“Oh my god, what the hell are you doing here?!” says Kyuhyun while clutching his chest.
He smirks. “Continuing the conversation we dropped earlier.” He was talking about that phone pickup line session by Kyuhyun this noon.
“Oh.”
“Aren’t you going to ask me to sit down?”
Kyuhyun maintains a blank face. “No. Sit by your own accord.” Younger says while making his way to his chair. He finally rolls his eyes as he sits on the couch in front of the study table.
“So, what brings you here?”
Sungmin inaudibly gulps, but was able to compose himself before nervousness take over him.
“Sen.”
Kyuhyun rolls his eyes.
He chuckles; he never thought teasing Kyuhyun would be fun. But then, remembering that his purpose of going there is a serious one, the smile on his face disappeared. Kyuhyun stares at him, waiting for his reply.
This is it. He inhales deeply, mentally cheering for himself before saying…
“I agree to be your Submissive.”
TO BE CONTINUED
-And so, the real angst and story starts here.
-Unbetaed. Short, crappy chapter. Ugh.
-I know I said this chapter will be fluff… but I guess it did not turn out that way cos of sudden change of plans lololol anyways, Cheesy Kyu was featured, so I guess it is still fluff kkk
-Comments are appreciated! Thank you, my lovely readers <3