i need a job.
i can't find a job.
but i need one.
however, i am picky and refuse to work at dunkin donuts.
everywhere i look you either have to be 18, or they are no longer hiring.
argh, this is so frustrating.

 well, not really.
but it's up there.
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i got my two tongues cd and shirt today.
i'm just freaking out!
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i am so happy.

sara is ignoring me. we were supposed to hang out and i texted her and she ignored it. and then her facebook says she's out. :/ hmmph.
[but then i got the two tongues stuffs, so now i'm good.]

oh well, i've got a jill night tonight. [: ( Read more... )

 i think i'm sick.
that, or it's just that AWESOME pms.
god, i just love being a girl.

moving on, i have become a disney whore.
it's lovely.

so, i have a love/hate relationship with men.
i hate them, but they're so goddamn pretty.
:/
i would like to find a boy.
wouldn't that be swell?

so, right now, i feel the need to re-invent myself.
i'm over dying my hair.
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 college is already murdering me.
why?
because i haven't found "that" college.
the one that i'm head over heels for.
it's honestly too late.
deadlines have either come and gone, or are this sunday.
i really like green mountain and keene state.
honestly, i really don't care.
maybe i'll just got for a year, and then spend sophomore year abroad.
and then take ( Read more... )

( i blame hannah. )

i love you, sailor mars.

yeah, i am lame.
moving on from that, 
i fixed bemis!
go me.
i am just so awesome. [:
[:nmc';;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;?;./
apparently bemis [the kitten, not the car] wanted to say ...something.
so, 
there is this kid i want to punch.
he's an ass.
and he should get deported.
yeah, i said it.
fucking sexist, homophobic, ass.

( joining the bandwagon! )

yeah everything is alright!

that's not even a lie.
i feel so much better.
i stayed in last night and watched a movie with my parents.
then i helped ben with girl trouble.
that confirmed that i'm over him, i knew i was, but that definitely confirmed it.
so, now i just feel better.
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i'm totally content with life.

anyways, ive been home all day.
i woke up ( Read more... )

 not really.
everything is just getting worse and worse.
and it's partly because of events, and partly just because.
i hate it.
i friggin' broke down today.
just lost it.
there was crying.
i hate when people see me cry.
at least it was carissa and zhanar.
and then wes.
aww, speaking of. he is the nicest. giving me all these hugs and checking to make sure i ( Read more... )

 i'm in a rut.
a mental rut.
and i've been in this goddamn rut for months.
i think that i'm getting out and then...
BAM, "hello rut, why the fuck am i back here?"
i don't really know.
to be perfectly honest.
i know that i am excited to go to college.
i'm ready to meet new people.
i know that i need to forget certain people exist.
and not let them affect me. 
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 so, i just got back from taking bethany to the airport.
it's really sad.
i miss her.
and she's literally been apart from me for two hours.
i can't wait to go see her in february.
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so anyways, 
i'm dreading school.
i can't stand half the people.
now that bethany is gone i can feel the irritability coming back.
oh well.
i've noticed i've been brutally honest ( Read more... )