It's been a long while since my last post. I don't seem to find passion in writing like I had hoped for. I think it has a lot to do with the anxiety and depression I seem to be suffering from more then I should be.

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 Micah, Micah, Micah. Do you know those stupid movies like Twilight; where the guy walks in, the air seems to shift, your heart skips a beat, you lick your lips, swallow and feel a lump in the back of your throat, and your stomach does a thousand flip flops. Yeah, that sort of thing does happen, even when you have been talking to said guy on the ( Read more... )

I went to the doctors. I tested positive for two stds... one is curable one is manageable. Waiting on the blood work for the others. My heart was broken and I went into flight mode, wanting to break up with my boyfriend, and to leave everything behind. To run away from it all. Yet, I always do that and it NEVER helps. It doesn't fix anything, just ( Read more... )

Nothing like waking up Friday evening late, with an earache and then it continues to get worse to the point where by this morning I cant swallow and haven't eaten anything solid since Saturday evening. Mostly just broth, popsicles and Gatorade. Finally got some antibiotics so hope in the next few days I will start to feel better!

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Two marriages and one relationship later....They say third lucks the charm...it really isn't. I am slowly beginning to realize that I love differently then most people. There is that song by Halsey "Bad At love"...maybe so.

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Okay, I really stink at this. I have a cousin Amber and a friend Lindsay who are avid writers. They keep encouraging me to write, even if it's just a short few sentences because anything is better than nothing. What happened, to make that seem nearly impossible too? I use to be a daily writer. I had two journals, one that was hand written and a ( Read more... )

Well, how else does one say hello to their live journal friends? If they are still here? I know having someone who isn't active and who isn't replying doesn't make you all giddy inside but I am here. My life was a wreck not too long ago, and yet finally everything is sooo much better! I am currently at the public library using their internet to ( Read more... )

Why can't I seem to get my writing act together? Let's see, my car isn't fixed, haven't found work and had a major fight and breakup with my boyfriend...so I feel lost and alone, sad, depressed, angry. Lots of emotions. Instead of being positive and looking for the light, I sit here on the fence, yearning for that light but seeing the easy way to ( Read more... )

I wanted my first journal entry to be positive and a lot about me and my life a little bit more detailed then my profile and stuff, but when you find out the used car you bought needs several sensors replaced and you don't have enough funds to cover it. WELL, CRAP! Being unemployed recently and moving is not the time to be dealing with this. Maybe ( Read more... )