self-destruction is ghey. i suckkkk.

it's funny to see all the posts about retrospection pop out like mushrooms after a rain. (mushroom...? badger ( Read more... )

Not for the last time, I've been stuck at this page for another twenty minutes. Thinking back, thinking ahead, and letting the tide of memories, the un-penned thoughts of a dissatisfied mind, wash me away. Trying to make sense of them, before they crash into an opaque wall of greyness and smash themselves into smithereens.

Tears fall down your ( Read more... )

maybe i'm getting too old for this. too old to be angsting.

but i can't say that i'm not trying my best. i can't say that anyone i know can really understand what's happening around me. i can't tell myself that i'm breaking because i'm weak. i don't want to believe that i'm weak. i can't.

i want to be a better man.

today, i did something to make my life better ( Read more... )

i've just finished watching 'matrix revolutions' to top off the gloomy forecast. i remember feeling shaken after i watched that film for the first time. the perpetual dimness and shady hues of the picture, the plot, and even the lines and quotes from the movie seem to contest my pestilient ramblings about life. this second time that i watched it ( Read more... )

the weekends are finally here. my license to game officially starts now. so here i am: sneaked off my bed at the break of dawn, switched on the computer, and reminicised at how i used to love playing games in early morning. i loved the feeling of indulging myself when everyone else was still fast asleep and unconscious. i loved knowing that when ( Read more... )

hey kegan ( Read more... )

sometimes it's hard to draw the line between where you want to go, and where you're actually heading for. and, fuck it hurts when you hit a wrong turn. i don't know what to do; i'm just gonna sit it out.

stupid is as stupid does.

have you ever tried to face your fear? when your world comes crashing, and you know you have nothing below to break the fall; when you live to see your deepest insecurities materialise. have you ever tried looking into the void, and yet still keep yourself? that void of emptiness and doubts and fears ( Read more... )