I have an errand I have to run today and I'm really kind of afraid to do it, but it needs to be done. Also laundry. I've been wearing shirts twice for a few days now; it has to be done. When you wake up, and think of the errand you have to run and the word that comes into your head first that morning is "yuck", you know you have to do something ( Read more... )

Another hot day. I'm in shorts, which just doesn't happen, but it's happening today. Mark says my legs are "glow-in-the-dark white". I never wore shorts in SF...until today ( Read more... )

I talked to my mom who was worried about my brother because he wasn't answering her e-mails. I called my brother today. He answered, which is good. He goes through this stuff with my mom and the tone of her posts. There was this picture up on Facebook where he was drinking a glass of wine. My mother told me "I saw the picture and he was ( Read more... )

Sometimes, I wish I could just sleep all day. I don't like weekends very much. They're all off-kilter somehow. And if I've got things I'm worried about that have to wait until Monday, it's like I'm climbing the walls. My husband has trouble staying awake a lot of the time. I wish I were somewhere in the middle, so taking a nap in the afternoon ( Read more... )

My therapist WOULD have to be on vacation this week. Between way too much physical pain, changes in behavioral patterns and an argument with Mark, it's been a rough week so far. I usually see him on Thursday; now I have to wait until next week. It seems like he's been taking a lot of vacations. Also, one of the places he's been working, he's ( Read more... )

Big argument with Mark yesterday. Loud one, too. He was mad at me because I accidentally threw some grated cheese out. He told me I was useless, and that I'm never going to be able to keep a job. He talked about leaving me for the first time since he's been back. Things got so loud I'm sure everyone around us heard it, and people always seem ( Read more... )

I have to go get my Cymbalta, because it's my pain med for the fibromyalgia, and it's supposed to have severe withdrawal symptoms almost immediately. I already knocked myself out yesterday because some of the buses are re-routed because they're tearing up the tracks on the Muni and everything's a mess down there. It affects about five bus and ( Read more... )

I'm just...money's been really tight and I sent in an application to Vocational Rehab about a month ago. At the orientation, they told me it would take them two weeks to a month to get back to me, and I think we might even be past a month now. I'm going to call them tomorrow. I just want to get on with my life, learn what I need to know about ( Read more... )

I'm waiting for a friend of ours to come over so we can go out to eat. I'm starting to be hungry again; I ate something earlier ( Read more... )

This woman I'm supposed to hang out with today seems to be as bad at staying by her phone as I am. I got a Facebook comment at some point this morning saying "I'm awake. Call me". So I called back around ten and she didn't answer. I'm gearing up to take a nap in about half an hour; I hope I can get hold of her before that. I need to get out of ( Read more... )