i talked to him again. I had to call him. He was on my mind, and i couldn't take him out. I cannot hold grudges. That is my ultimate weakness. Than again is that a weakness? Things are the same as always. Friends. friends. friends. I don't care though. I felt shut down again... i cried. i quickly stopped tho. My tears aren't worth this i thought. I ( Read more... )

my wisdom teeth are coming out. It hurts somewhat... anything that helps this process ? anyone know how long it takes for them to fully pop up?

in my shower stall this morning .. i woke up to find a big pile of shit inside. I don't know how it got there. but it shocked the hell outta me! i figure it was the girl next door's boyfriend being the big dick that he is.. or it might of been a fraternity initiation or task... ??? i don't know but that added a bit of disgust and also laugh to my ( Read more... )

i have cut him off completely now. I didn't know what else to do. I went over there wednesday and i didn't even see him for 2 minutes. HE had an attitude when i was on my way to his house... and than i went to meet him at his job and he w asn't there. he wouldn't pick up my calls, and he ignored me two hours later when i showed up in his house. I ( Read more... )

i'm in my house now in the bronx. i got here last night like 1 am. I just woke up and feel so good. There's so much food in my house i think i'm going to look like a cow when i go back to school. I missed my family soo much. I hope everyone has a good thanksgiving... cuz i will .. ;x I am going to see my mauricio a lil later ..hopefully no wierd ( Read more... )

things seems to change everyday ( Read more... )

There are smiles again. For one, i just want to say i came out of this situation okay. I realized what everyone's been trying to tell me all along.. I really shouldn't have stressed myself over him. I'm just glad i didn't take it any further with my deppression stage. I am fine nows. pretty happy actually. I know it's only been a day or two since ( Read more... )

i saw him yesterday. I don't know why but i spoke to some friends and they told me to talk to him again. See what was really inside of him. Or atleast try to. Since i hadn't see him since the breakup i figured i should sort of say goodbye. even if it's just good bye to the relationship... i didn't want to, but a part of me said that he wasn't going ( Read more... )

mauricio broke up with me thursday. he says it was because he doesn't want a girlfriend right now. He didn't want a serious relationship anymore. HE wouldn't tell me anything else. all he said was that he wanted us to be friends. I cried my eyes out. My friends comforted me. I am staying strong enough for them.. but inside im tearing myself apart. ( Read more... )

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