well im sittin in me bed i should be cleaning my room and the bathroom but i dont feel good! plus my room is basically done anyways.... hmm anyways i dunno what else to say...went to mooney today haha i actually got lost! how weird is that no well they got a new weight room so Josh had to direct us how to go out the building...haha (Josh or Mr. ( Read more... )

well i did it i yelled at him for an hour straight! yelled with a lil bit of talking! and said GOODBYE! im free from listening to all the lies im free from all the hurt all the crying...i dont even wanna hear his name! blah! he grr lol but i did i said goodbye im taking everyones advice and moving on but it still hurts it hurt so bad to have to say ( Read more... )

why do people start shit with me...im sick of the damn lies. I hate when people say i say something and its not fuckin true! especially when that person doesnt even know me...its a lil shady when someone snoops around to find info and they dont even know you personally...they may have seen you or know someone that interacts with you but come on do ( Read more... )

well i have made much much progress..or in Kristens words im beginning to be "sane" again!! haha i ripped up some old pictures i had of him and threw away the sunglasses i had of his! progress right? all i wanna do is screem at him! i think this is all a good thing! cuz if its not then i dunno what is lol... im sorry to offend anyone by my entry ( Read more... )

well not totally at the second...it comes and goes...so i have found out it is hard to wipe someone that used to be so close to you completely away...but i wnat to do that soo bad but it just doesnt seem to work like i dont even want to hear his name anymore..all it continues to do is hurt me! when ive done nothing! i just dont get it! what have i ( Read more... )

im out...im through with it! im through with my family im through with some friends or ppl that call themselves friends...bs if someone is a friend they follow through with things they r there through thick or thin through good or bad...they dont just talk every once in awhile they stay they dont leave they tell the truth they dont lie... i think i ( Read more... )

hope every1 had a great christmas!!

its nice to know that its christmas and im just so fuckin pissed off n depressed and very very alone! im sick of being here....ya not like anyone cares but o well im tired of life....goodbye!

its way too cold for fla!! grr! anyways what like 2 more days till xmas n i still have 3 ppl to shop for! GRR!! anyways what can i say its not xmas till your out on xmas eve shoppin!! woo! lol anyways im soo tired i should be sleepin im wait till Nelly my puppy to finish eatin n ya well that takes awhile! lol! anyways my feet r FREEZING n i have ( Read more... )

well ok so sunday was well lets just say nothing was accomplished...im just an idiot girl...but i did text him now tellin him we need to talk so to let me know when he is free! ugh so next week i only have xmas off! i work str8 thru the whole week hmm rackin in the money cuz im determined to move to tampa next year! ya i said tampa! we'll see but i ( Read more... )