I love him. I love his heart, I love his soul.

And, at the end of the day, no matter what, he's the one I want.

I could say more, but I won't. No point. I'm making a conscious effort to get over it.

*sigh*

One thing I'm really good at is forgiving people. Someone will betray me completely, be completely mean, etc. and I'll give them a chance, talk it out, and honestly forgive them. And, immediately, I'm over it. They start out with a clean slate with me. I think it's bad to hold grudges. It's stupid. And aren't we supposed to forgive and forget ( Read more... )

I wish I had someone, ANYONE to talk to, but I have no one, cuz no one understands.

When I let myself feel...when I'm being honest with myself....

I hurt SO, SO bad. God is the only thing I have.

Sometimes I just wanna grab someone, a stranger even...and just scream at them--can't u see I'm dying inside????

*sigh*

I hate this.

(Notice: This post is very random in the way that I wrote it. Just typing things as I think them ( Read more... )

A while back, I decided to own my feelings. If I start to feel something, instead of pushing those feelings back, I try to allow myself to really feel and figure out WHAT exactly I feel and why. In a way, it's a good plan. On the other hand, it can be dangerous. Sometimes being completely honest with yourself isn't exactly the most comforting, ( Read more... )

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I miss him.

And I miss him...for no real reason.

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In 15 days, I get to be in Joel's apartment and sleep beside him. The one thing I'm looking forward to the most is just being able to lie in bed and talk to him for hours. What a luxury. It's going to be absolutely wonderfulHe ( Read more... )

I wrote something here, but then made it a private entry because I think certain ppl may read it and think it's about them when it's not.

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what you did to me made me see myself something different

and though i try to talk sense to myself

but i just won't listen.

won't u go away, turn urself in

u're no good at confession

before the image that u burned me in

tries to teach u a lesson....

my peace and quiet was stolen from me

when i was looking with calm affection

u were searching out my ( Read more... )