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I wonder these things these days. Its seem like the world never changes or moves anymore. Maybe its the rut I am in or just my crappy life in general. I try to stay upbeat and happy, but to any of my friends that know me well know its all just an act to cover up the hurt. I miss most of the ppl I used to talk to on here, but it would appear most of ( Read more... )

Well he finally came home at 4am. Then after telling me b4 he left no one would be in MY car yeah the reason he pulled in and left some girl left her keys in my car. He was at a house party all that time. Then trys to come home and say oh I missed you oh I had the chance to do something with a girl and didn't because of you. Then this morning tells ( Read more... )

Well I had my gaulbladder out tues and now he went out and left me. said he would be back b4 3am and its now almost 4.... It wouldn't hurt so bad except I watched him pull in to park and then leave again and he didn't even come in to tell me why.. He said he would call if he was going to be out past 3 amd not one word from him. I had this big ( Read more... )

Well I haven't had my net for awhile and I haven't been home anyway. I have spent the last 2 weeks at my friends bar dancing and drinking. I guess I am using it as a release to get away from buggy. Not like if I was home he would want anything to do with me we have sliped into the rut of I sit in front of his video game and i watch TV and we don't ( Read more... )

Well I don't know when I will update this again, seeing as my net is supossed to be off now. Nothing new in my world for those of you that actually read this. Same shit as always. Odie is mad at me again only this time I have no idea why. He sleeps all day stays up all night to ensure he doesn't have to spend time with me anymore. So you know same ( Read more... )

I don't know why I bother other than I do love him that much. I just don't get it. Todays fight was about me saysing he is too selfish.. I said to him today why is it all about what you want and things you have to waste money on or nothing at all. The fight went from there. I said you know I am a person too and I have things I want and need its not ( Read more... )

I am at a loss...I can't make him happy no matter what...I can't make myself happy either. I can't end it because he won't go until I am dead or he is dead. I wish i had never met him most days now and i hate this feeling. I long for the way things used to be but know that will never be so.... Yeah doesn't much matter anymore. Not that things ever ( Read more... )

Well I haven't updated in a long time but my life is no better.....Big suprise right.well buggy said lets work things out then went and lied to me and heated on me with someone that said they hated him and couldn't stand him..my world has finally come apart at the seams now. I just don't know how to feel about any of it.. Not to mention that the ( Read more... )

Well net goes off 2morrow i am moving on top of that. So well yeah I am busy. Anyway things aren't any better with buggy so who knows anymore. I found myself crying the other night missing someone very dear to me that lives not even 5 miles from me but when we talk it seems like further. I really mis him and well yeah anyway things suck but hey its ( Read more... )