I doubt anyone still reads this but it atleast lets me get all my feelings out anyway. For those of you who know me and i mean the real me love ya lots and will miss yu even more. I will not be back on the net for awhile seeing as buggy is telling me i am now grounded from the comp even though its my net. That and iI am moving out i can not nor ( Read more... )

Things have been pretty nice this week no more fighting and we have been getting along pretty good. I have been tryig to keep my moods under controle and be in a real good mood all the time. Kinda hard when the other day we were at wal-mart and I made a comment and he said I am not with you and I don't want to be. Felt like someone ripped my hurt ( Read more... )

I just don't get it. I see what buggy was tellin all his net friends happend last night and I come off like the one thats all at fault and that is a nu. N/M the fact he beats me or shit like that and that every person has a snapping point. Its always all my fault I am always the one who is crzy and does everything wrong. He nevers does anything ( Read more... )

Have you ever been pushed past a point of all rashenal thinking? well thats what happend last nightwith me. I am soo sick of him whineing to me i feel bad but then he doesn't go and get it taken care of, so I say go to the DR or call her on monday and that starts a fight now. Just like anything else i say these days does. So now he throws a fit and ( Read more... )

Went to the DR yesterday she gave me a higher dose of meds seeing as buggy says they weren't helping at all. Its no wonder they don't help what he wants them to do they aren't going to do.No meds are going to make me sit and not say how I fell about things at all which is what he wants. Like now he is going to lay 0n the bathroom floor cuz he had ( Read more... )

Why is it that I have to be soo in love with someone that is completely in love with someone else. Came home from lunch with my mom yesterday because buggy says come home I need you home I feel bad and need snuggles and lovein. So I come home only to watch him chat with an old friend about the aussi girly he dumped me for 2 years ago and how he can ( Read more... )

I just can't make him happy no matter what, and to be honest I'm kinda sick of trying too he is such an ass these days and says that I am the one that needs to lose my attitude. Well half the time I wouldn't have one if he wouldn't be such a jerk. I mean shit somedays he will be soo sweet but then he goes back to being a dick. I just can not make ( Read more... )

I never know what to think anymore. One min he is so sweet the next a rageing ass for no reason. Yesterday we got in a fight because he stayed up all night and then wouldn't get up to go and try to get a job as promised. So I started packing my things and as always he must get violent. I thought after valentines day things were going to get better ( Read more... )

I can't handle this anymore. He spends all night on the comp tells me oh I will get up and try and find a job today but oh hell fuck no we can't get up. He hasn't slept 12 hours yet. then yells at me because I try and wake him up an hour after he was supossed to get up. I can't take this kin of life anymore he won't help out around the house while ( Read more... )

Went to the DR yesterday morning she put me back on meds. No suprise with all the stress as of lately. Buggy well he made it a joke and made fun of me nothing really new these days. I really miss the old him he used to be sweet and careing or at lese put on a front that he was. Now a days all he wants to do is play comp till all hours of the night ( Read more... )