No, I really didn't want to give in so easily, but I had to know. And so, I went. I saw him. And I don't mean that I just saw him in that physical sense of him being there right in front of me. I mean, I saw his soul through his eyes and I could feel his heart through his fingertips, and I felt the boy had turned into a man. We sat, we talked, we ( Read more... )

Yay...I can't wait to get out of here for a little vacation. It's gonna be fun. We still have alot of stuff to do. I still have laundry....oh man. Sooooooooooooooooo much laundry. Tomorrow, I gotta get my nails, my toes, my hair, and my eyebrows done. Fun stuff. Me, Ayo, and Lauren (if she can) are gonna try to do something before I go tomorrow ( Read more... )

Can't Take That Away ( Read more... )

Oh man, I can't wait to go visit all my friends and family. They're gonna have a party for me. It's gonna be sooooooooooo fun! I'm gonna stay as long as I can, then come back before the Neptunes come to L.A. so that me, Ayo, and Demitrius can go, since he's never been to a concert before...*makes "the face"* It'll be fun stuff. Can't wait. My ( Read more... )

Feeling so much better. I never thought I'd be this okay after a break-up so serious, but I am...REALLY. I don't think we'll try the "let's be friends" method again, because this time it's much too hard. Monday will be the last time I see him. And I can deal with it. I mean, if he isn't ready for us then he isn't ready. I can't make him be. He ( Read more... )

This may be the last thing that i write for long ( Read more... )

So here I am again, depressed, because he doesn't "feel like he used to". So, here WE are, broken up AGAIN, for the 5th time. All I wanna know is when does it stop hurting? It would be nice to take away all the pain. We made so many plans and he promised me that he wouldn't do this to me again...but he did. and here I am, wishing I had gone to get ( Read more... )

I am soooo excited. We're gonna go see Jenna Jameson at Hustler Tuesday night. It's great. I love her. She's hot and sexy and beautiful. I hope I can talk to her without drooling all over myself. hehehehe. It's funny 'cause we're making it a group event, and everyone is gonna go. Yay!!! Me, Ayo, Adeline, her *ahem* boyfriend, the "I" word, his ( Read more... )

Love is blind as far as the eye can see ( Read more... )

Why does he do that???? I hate it. I hate fighting. I hate when I have good news and he just disregards my whole mood and idea. I hate him sometimes. I hate myself for putting up with his shit. Why do I deal with it and think that it'll get better when we live together??? The fights, the arguments, the pain, the shitty moods, the empty feeling.... ( Read more... )