THREE NAMES YOU GO BY ( Read more... )

new livejournal account! but i'm keeping this one so i can still read everybody's. :)

my boat won !!!!!! i've been down there for the WHOLE DAY, since the early am...and seen and met the coolest people and at the end we won.

OHHHHH.

I'm so sorry. i'm so sorry. hypocritical thoughts ( Read more... )

Something is deeply wrong with our relationship. I see her in the morning for five minutes, and sometimes i'll see her around school, and that will be the only time i talk to her for the rest of the day. It struck me how sad it must be for HER, to know that she put a girl in this world, and she doesn't even live with her own daughters anymore, and ( Read more... )

The lake was beautiful today ( Read more... )

I met a guy in the JFK airport. I sat down two seats away from him, many bags in hand, all alone in one of the biggest airports. He started a conversation and we ended up talking for quite a while. He works at the Paramount and has a place in the city, and played for the red hot chili peppers for a few months. We talked about Seattle people. He ( Read more... )

I don't even know how i'm doing. I feel like everything's going on around me and i'm just passing through it, almost painlessly, almost ignoring everything unconciously. I want to feel everything and express it, but when i do that, i feel as if i'm over-exagerating it, and then everything just feels fake. Maybe i really am fine. In the last month, ( Read more... )

"you dont know where you are
think youre falling
you want to cry but you forget how to
everybody's dying
everybody's dying
pick me up
let me be sophisticated
i'm so plaine
think you're dying
think again
two steps forward, one step back
at least you're getting somewhere."

i'm not even that mad. i haven't even cried that much. I know i'm allowed to be mad. But the thing is, i'm so mad that i don't even know who to get angry at. We had a family dinner...meaning, Mom came over. She acted so much like she still lives here. If she's going to leave, then she shouldnt make it harder by pretending that she didn't. I have no ( Read more... )