So, I have a job now. It's not a glamorous one, but it's a job and that's something in this economy. I'm a prep person/cook at Captain Ds ... Hey, I get 35+ hours a week at least though. But It seems that all I do is work now ... And have nothing to show for it, at all. Feels like I keep working and working but I'm not getting anywhere. Sort of ( Read more... )

I think this is the longest that I have ever been without updating this thing. I guess you could say my life has been in a whirlwind this past year. I've went from breaking up with Kayla, attempting suicide, getting back with Kayla, breaking up with her again to finding the most amazing woman, loving her with all my heart, and living on our own ( Read more... )

I think I know why I turn to self destruction ... Alcohol, pills, razors, etc ... I think it's because I have no one to talk to. It's like the people I am comfortable with, either they won't talk to me or they can't. Most of the time it just feels like they won't and that they just don't care ( Read more... )

All my life I've battled depression in some shape or form ... But the past two years or so it's been different. I kind of think now what I am actually battling with is a bad case of anxiety rather than actual depression ( Read more... )

Sunday ... Part of me died ( Read more... )

So it seems I have a trend that seems to be starting ... Januarys suck for me. Hell, a chunk of the beginning of the year sucks for me. All started last year when I fucked up major on the 7th of January ... And the tradition seemed to continue on the 8th of this year ( Read more... )

Do you ever get the feeling you're being lied to? That you're being deceived or mislead ( Read more... )

So yeah, Kayla's moving back down to Newnan ... And I haven't really got to talk to her much over the past week ... But when we have been talking it's kind of been bleh ( Read more... )

So it's been a while since I've last posted and I guess a lot of things are different now ( Read more... )

Ok so there has been something that has been bothering me a lot lately. And no, it's not something crazy that has been going on with me ... And it's not something that you will usually find me blogging about ... But I can't help it this time. It's just been irritating me ( Read more... )