i just wanted to finally proclaim to my meager audience that i have decided to quit lj. this is but a bullshit investiture of an otherwise meaningful daily five minutes. nobody updates or even bothers to read/comment. i must say that it was difficult to come to this conclusion, that the holy roman empire which was our friends network has crumbled, ( Read more... )

my cat died on friday. we found him saturday morning, and it was obvious that he had been attacked, probably by some wild animal. it was our first night back at home in our lakeview house. he survived the flood there. how ironic that he didn't make it one day, this year, when we brought him back.

Things which are sad, make me sad,
And I am not the only one
To love the good and loathe the bad
But one out of six billion.

There are no wrongs; there are no rights,
As oft our emotions see,
But six billion different, present “mights,”
Conflicting in humanity.

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i think the death penalty sneds (hic) the message that some human beings are untreatable by science, are mere failures. that's funny though, because what creates murderers is developmental trauma in the family and the like. so if they were altered in such a way as a child, why can't they be fixed, or at least acknowledged as victims of an ( Read more... )

i think that much of the pleasure which i derive from listening to music is a result of nostalgia. it just makes me emotional, the past feelings with which i associate different songs and such. but such feelings are far too distant now. the hurricane and the drastic and abrupt changes which followed it have too greatly distanced myself from them. i ( Read more... )

i just realized today at church that i have been an atheist for four years. that is a lot of years, i suppose. if only people would realize that disbelief in such a field is not a willing choice, but, much like one's sexuality, what just makes sense to them. my dad believes in god but does not think that he is a bastard enough to punish people for ( Read more... )

new york is a bleak place. everybody honks, and for no reason. nobody is nice to poor people, either, and even some of them are mean. thus

new orleans
kicks
ass

okay i am feeling a little better. aside from the lack of lj comments (prompt?), i fear that i'm missing an essential element of what makes me life so memmorable. but i always believe that i am, hence the continuous downward progression. basically ( Read more... )

depravity and desolance reign once again inside my turbulent brain. i had assumed that the writing institute would have helped, and it did, but now that i'm back here i can't help being sad about people. i can't help feeling as if i'm alone in everything. I can't help but imagine my life as a negative slope, where every previous point is higher up ( Read more... )