what a fool i am. not to believe that i, with my mental capabilities that i suppose act as a double-edged sword more than once thought, could perform socially without medication, but to relive things without any hesitance. i'm a pushover. "i always depend on the kindness of strangers," fucking blanche dubois. thank predator for opium. and thank him ( Read more... )

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http://community.livejournal.com/__anti_liberals/1660.html?view=5500#t5500

also read my post in that community. it was rather poorly written though

today i went home and slept under the window through which the evening sunlight shines. on my dog's bed. i was still feeling sick and therefore missed organ lessons and choir practice, to my dismay and glee respectively. sew i slept there till 6 or so and ( Read more... )

i hate literature and poetry that take ages for the author to convey his/her point. if it's all about humanity and such, why not just write it the fuck down with as little symbolism and needless characters and references and subplots and metaphors as possible? i suppose some people prefer to understand racism through a 600-page novel like invisible ( Read more... )

fuck it lolzzzzzzzzzzzz. bailey's key just got stuck. i'm sleeping over at her house and i have to leave in two and a half hours to drive home and get to church for 9:30. i think that i'm a stupid emo kid who commands attention. and i think that i'm a stupid emo kid who commands attention who is unattractive. i'm going to drive home tomorrow (or at ( Read more... )

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I admit, golf’s a stupid sport ( Read more... )

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well i have drudged through this entire week without my cell phone, a device that is as important to me as my large camera bag, or any of the other things i needlessly carry around (combs, incense, fifty-plus caffeine pills, etc). but, surprisingly, i have prevailed with more confidence in my social status than the previous weeks. to reiterate, one ( Read more... )