i dont know if im going to be able to go to austin anymore. its strange how a somewhat uneventful day can go so wrong. blah, i just want this summer to be over so i can drown myself with school and be done with all of it already.

so i had to go see my lawyer today... i think this whole experience has taught me one thing: people suck. not all people, just people in general. ive been trying really hard to not let it get me bitter, but its not working right now. i had a really weird discussion with my dad on the way home and i felt crushed. i think im just gonna give up on ( Read more... )

i went to a party last night. sherry talked me into staying till 1:30; ive realized that i am an extremely antisocial person at social gatherings like that. i dont even really know why i went. i think the events of the past few days have lowered my self esteem about 200 points... im kind of scared about going to austin now. i dont know, i think im ( Read more... )

yeah, so, yesterday sucked!!!!! i dont like the desert, i never did but now i actually have a reason not to... i got stuck in the damn sand and then my dad's truck died, well the battery, but eh it still sucked. it was really dumb, i didnt even want to go out there in the first place. thats not something i would do. blah. oh well, no major harm ( Read more... )

saw the notebook... i cried.... the drive back from the northeast was very lonely, especially in my big truck... but it was good, it made me think about certain things that ive been trying to avoid, so it was pretty productive. for a crappy morning, today turned out pretty good.

so today i had to tell the story of my accident for about the one millionth time... i had to give my statement to the bastard insurance adjuster. it sucked. it was like 21 question... that wasnt pleasant considering i had been up since 8 this morning. i saw spiderman this morning. it was cool, mostly because it reminded me of my cousin that got me ( Read more... )

tomorrow is the warped tour... second year in a row i havent been able to go... well im able to go, but i guess life just hates me sometimes. oh well, ill have next year. today is my homo's berfday!!!! called her to wish her a good one but our phones were fighting so ill proly give her a call soon... Ory love called me today! it was great to hear ( Read more... )

im going to a baseball game today... im not a big fan of baseball, so i dont really know why im going, but i think it will be fun. i think tonite when i get home im gonna make snickerdoodles..... woohoo! i think today is gonna be a better day than yesterday *hopefully*.

either it was the coffee, the cigarettes, or just a summation of everything that happened, but i dont feel good. my bed beat me up last night. i woke up with random bruises... that cant be good. i think im gonna go to kristophs with krystal in a bit, so maybe that will help. theres two small children at my house and if i stay here i will die. so ( Read more... )

it finally rained on saturday. it was cool. there was a full rainbow, it was so beautiful! i got to enjoy it on the way to kristoph's with manda and krystal. it was pretty cool driving in the rain in the truck. i felt tall! this weekend was pretty fun, i hung out with nat on friday and saturday and we watched movies the whole time. but on saturday ( Read more... )