the end. time for some l word and hiding in my bed. i've got lots to say but honestly i just dont feel like writing any of it.

i miss being excited and challenged by someone.

ok, im over it being rubbed in my face now. seriously, i get it. i think i might have finally become that bitter jaded girl i hate again. ughhh. i guess im just ready for a little something to come my way and JUST when i think it might...NOPE, not so much bri. ah well, whatever...not much i can do about it anyways.

if my way of thinking just doesnt exist. why do i go out of my way when it feels like its never returned? why do i even care so much? why do i even bother trying to explain why i feel like this when i shouldnt have to in the first place. whatever. i guess i just shouldnt expect so much from people. then again, no...that just doesnt cut it for me ( Read more... )

not at all how i expected to be spending my night tonight. im so sad and disappointed. not to mention sick as a dog.

but im so scared. please be ok.

i feel like theres all this stuff i want...not actual material stuff, rather that intangible life stuff...but its so far away. actually i think its really close but i just dont know how to get to it ( Read more... )

so 2007 was a year of change...in practically every area of my life. i trained and ran a marathon, quit my job, moved myself back across the country, put certain things in my life to rest finally, have dealt with my family splitting apart and got my ass to one piece to begin my next chapter in spain. its only normal that after a year of immense ( Read more... )

can my vacation be over yet? seriously i'd rather just go back to work at this point. im even more ready for the damn holidays to be over.

i've got none ( Read more... )

i miss talking to people. i miss the random checkins and hellos. i guess the whole abroad thing makes people think that its all glamour and party and forget that you're still living your life day to day just in a different place ( Read more... )