im exhausted and sad and frustrated and angry all rolled up into one big blah. im so over fighting and crying like that. what the fuck? it wasnt supposed to happen like that. im not supposed to get that angry anymore or react like that and somehow it just all came out. but i cant deal with stupidity or denial. nor can i deal with condescendingness ( Read more... )

deep breaths. patience bri. "the universe is unfolding as it should..." just keep remembering that. your turn is coming... somethings gotta give. it has to.

i need more spanish afternoons/nights like that more often! good weather, good people, good alcohol, good times...

a little bizbeth chat to remind me that i am loved and appreciated and missed. 51 days ( Read more... )

after what feels like the 100th time but in reality is like the 5th...i think the universe is trying to tell us something and i think its time we listen. you're doing just fine without me and after 6 months of living in europe on my own i realize that i've done just fine without you. i was stupid to think i needed you around to make my experience

i wish i could just turn off my head and my thoughts. i wish i was into drugs or something so i could have a way to just cut myself off from the constant record that seems to be playing in my head. but alas, im not and so i just tune it out as best i can on a daily basis until its just there and i cant get away from it anymore. sounds a bit morbid ( Read more... )

life gets a little overwhelming sometimes and blindsides you when you least expect it.

rip ajay. you will be truly missed. nyc wont be the same without you.

ahhh...vegetarian food, shopping for clothes that actually fit me, buying said cute clothes, thai food, chueca with tons of rainbows everywhere, cute girls, flirting, different types of people, actually understanding spanish for once, relaxing, running a 1/2 marathon, japanese noodles, cute new boots, soy chai from starbucks not once but twice... ( Read more... )

and i cant sleep. im getting sick and im so exhausted and still i cant sleep. i feel really uncertain right now, like everything is up in the air again just when i was starting to take a deep breath. stupid mind, stupid thoughts. stop thinking bri and go to bed!

understimulated...thats what it is. finally.