seriously. that was the best pride everrrrr! i got to hang out with such good people and see old friends and make new ones. what a crazy random good time weekend! heres to hoping theres more to come and a job opening up for me. :)

happy pride!!!

and i really dont understand why ( Read more... )

its gorgeous summer nights like these in an amazing city like this that actually make me feel lonely.

so much for my first great night out in san francisco...

kinda hard not to wonder what the hell im doing here and if i made a huge mistake in thinking i could come back here.

i cant help but get all pensive and shit as i sit here in my near empty room on my last night in cordoba. i cant believe how quickly time passed. i feel like just yesterday i was getting on the plane in boston crying my eyes out wondering what the hell i was doing and what the hell i was going to do and how i was going to ever possibly get to ( Read more... )

i need to sleep and stop thinking. i also need to remember to take deep breaths. i need to just enjoy myself and relax. damn emotions. i need to sleep.

one week left. time flies.

its always the same. and its old. im tired of being that girl. and i wont be her from now on. im so over this shit. seriously? i'd rather sleep alone.

sometimes i feel like i am being suffocated by this huge force that is controlling my life. you know its all connected and its part of something and all leads back to some point but you feel caught up in this web of what ifs and maybes and someday and somehow and when and maybe and coulda, woulda, shoulda until your head starts to spin and you try ( Read more... )

i got blindsided by this wave of sadness today. i have no idea where it came from but i couldnt shake it the whole day. all these these things are happening and time is just flying by and moments slipping away and life just going on and on and on in this motion that at times is amazingly breathtaking and exciting and at others suffocatingly fast. ( Read more... )