and as lucky as i am i cant help but wonder what it is i am missing.

and i may be a very lonely woman until my dieing day because of it...but i still am a firm believer that actions speak louder than words.

happy birthday to me.

one of my dear friends asked me as the clocked tolled midnight tonight what my goal for 25 was going to be. and as i thought a second about how i was going to reply i realized i didnt know. usually i have some elaborate list in my head of things i want to achieve by the time another year has passed, themes if you will to keep in mind as i plough my ( Read more... )

i feel like there is so much going on in my life and yet at the same time its eerily quiet. its strange living in this city without a car and without my usual commitments. its just me and my ipod and my trusty messenger bag with the phone on vibrate and fighting the urge to smoke a cigarette roaming the city. i love this city and i forgot how much ( Read more... )

good laughs tonight. i need more good laughs like that. as cheesy as it sounds...its good for the soul. im sure of it. ok, end chicken soup for the soul-esque posting now. :)

this past week has been a week full of moments where the reality and fragility of life has slammed me in the face. it has also reminded me of how lucky and blessed i am. these random moments keep bringing the raw emotion of the daily struggle of living and of making a life worth living into focus. its like everywhere i turn theres a slap in the ( Read more... )

there was this boy at my group tonight at the shelter and i swear i could feel his lonliness. it was just emanating from him as i showed the kids how to use the clay. then they went off into the cold windy strangely fall-like night in the middle of july and afterwards i was left with an empty room and a head rull of thoughts. i could help but be ( Read more... )

and i honestly forgot how much. and as much as the instability of being in my mid 20s and travelling around is, i absolutely love every second of it. i also love the little reminders that come my way to make me remember just how lucky i am and what a cool city i am blessed to be living in. this is the good stuff and i dont ever want to forget how ( Read more... )

sometimes i feel like the lonliest person in the world.

i guess it was only a matter of time before i remembered why i never need anyone. i can count on myself and even when people say they're gonna be there i somehow always find out the hard way that that is not the case. sooo heres to making the rest of my summer mine. i need to take deep breaths and trust that its all going to work out.

i guess there will always be something more important than me.